Friday, April 28, 2006
breakthrough
Today can be considered a traumatic day 4 me...i actually cried in front of my tutorial group!!!..we were having e mental health nursing tutorial..and one component is to come out with some structured activities..we didnt exactly go according to e book..e lecturer jux came in and got us to sit in one big circle..title of e 'game'..is opening up our windows..first she got everyone of us to say out our own strengths.. seems easy but can be quite difficult too..i mean not all ppl will tink veri highly of themselves..thus..i had some troubles saying it out..plus i was e 5th one i tink (including e lecturer)..so i jux said.."i can understand things veri fast..and i will help if anyone approaches me (actually i meant academic wise)..and i am a good listener...but i can only listen..haha"..yup..tt's all i said bout my strengths la...really cant think of anymore in such a short time..then everyone starts saying their strengths..and some of theirs are really good..tt i sorta admire..but well different ppl are good at different things ba..like i am good in music..but i am gone case in drawing...haha..After everyone had finished..we started again..in another direction..this time is say our weakness...actually to me saying weakness mayb much easier...i mean..we noe veri well ourselves wad r our strengths and weaknesses..but to say strength out is like boasting (of cos we dun meant tt in this tutorial)..and to say weaknesses is more like being humble..so everyone starts to say out their weaknesses..upon hearing them..suddenly realise tt life is not so perfect like we tink it is...and honestly when hearing others..i already had tears in my eyes cos i noe how they feel..maybe i am like tt oso ba..then when it comes to me..i only say one sentence.."i dun noe how to express myself well..."then dunno why my tears start coming...aiyo..so paiseh..havent even come to e main point i wanna say already cry le..reasons why i cried..hmm..mayb (1) i already had e urge to cry when listening to others (2)1st time having so many ppl to listen to me, really not used cos normally is i listen to others (3)i am truely facing e greatest 'problem/fear/pain' in my heart....then i continued saying.."others may tink tt i am not sociable"...then i cried again...dotx..so during my turn..i only said these 2 incomplete sentences......
nevertheless..nvr mind..i am gg to finish myself now and here...to end everything and move on..actually what i intended to say during class jux now is: My weaknesses are tt i am not very confident and i dun really noe how to express myself..so everytime when friends come to me with their problems..all i can do is only listen..even though in my heart i can feel what they are feeling..i jux dunno how to console or advice them..n i really felt guilty and regretful..oso..when facing ppl i am not close with..i dunno how to communicate..so i will mostly keep quiet..too quiet tt even i myself tink tt i am veri anti-social..and i will always keep all problems to myself..i wont say it to anyone..i wont say it here too..even how much lousy i feel..how angry i am..i will not express it..and lastly..i dun like to repeat myself..hmm..wierd weakness ba..but i really dun like to say things 2/3 times...i will feel very frustrated lorx..so unless is very important..if not if anyone cant hear me..i will not say it again...hmm..actually depends on mood oso la..if tt day i dun feel very good..i mayb more frustrated ba..plus horx..sometimes i too forgetful le..jux say only i 4got le..so mayb sometimes others may misunderstood tt i dun wanna say things to them..but is i really forgot le!!
aniwae...tt event is over le..and i am ok now..so i shall 4get this embarrassing incident..i really dun wan to cry de lorx.. :( so pls dun bring this up again..yeah..long weekend this time..can hav a nice nice nice sleep...oh ya..i tink renfu back in taiwan le..4 a few days only ba..then dunno when xiezhi new book selling in spore..kino import should be quite fast de ba...but i shall wait patiently..(seems like i hav a lot of patience for 56)..haha..ok..this blog is veri de lengthy le..shall end here..bye:)
(supposed to be his greatest limits in front of a cam..
naked except a skin coloured underwear..
+ a lot of bubbles..)
(ahhh...why 56 all become like this..one renfu still not enough mehx??)
(joking of cos)
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
1st week
1st wk of sch had past...and i actually found it quite slow gg..haha..mayb too busy ba..plus this sem like a lot of lesson...had been gg for more lectures now..and many lectures are quite boring though..due to club crawl..had missed quite a few lessons..especially bio..had a hard time catching up...haix..too sianx to study now..shall buck up later..this time they cramp yr 3 stuff in our curiculum too..like mental health..though interesting..but i can only understand e lecturer but not e book..no link b/w wad e book and e lecturer says lehx..dotx..and this time oso got night classes..on tues ending at 8pm..but not so bad la..jux tt cant go for combine co practice..hehefinally tmr gg to jj's party le..after much consideration..i had decided not to go to his concert le..sobs...one thing is money..(save up to buy more things)..and one thing is companionship..aniwae..nvr mind..i can still c him tmr wad...hahaha...bout e 56 concert coming up..haix..e only way 2 get tix is by buying e organiser's products ba..but no way am i gg to spend 100+ for those health products jux to get 2 tix..so..no choice but to give this event a miss..dun tink they will perform much songs aniwae..haha..consoling myself..hope xiezhi can sign his upcoming book jian chi when he comes this time..hehe...should hav some events of them ba..haix..nonetheless..we can only wait 4 more news now..waiting normally is a torture..but tink i will be too busy to feel it too...
hmmm..seriously speaking..not much things to update lehx...blog blog blog bout daily life only..getting a little sianx le..haix...mayb nxt time got new ideas then shall change my way of blogging..hahaha...
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
time flies
sch officially starts tmr..but i am totally engrossed in hol mood lorx..haha..currently watching many tv shows...wei si li, da chang jin, hi shang ban nu lang, xian jian qi xia zhuan, shao nian te gong dui, meng pin tu, jie da huan xi and ge dou tian wang...haha..seriously speaking..tt's a lot!!!.. nevertheless..i am still gonna continue watching them..haha..
nxt sunday is jj's party le..still on hunt 4 ppl to go with me..lolx...i got like 3 tix on hand..toking bout this party..it will oso be a selling session for his upcoming concert..again..wad pricing should i get arhx??..headache man...but e most headache thing is...5566 is coming for a sorta concert at may 20th...and i still dunno how to get tix for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...lolx..why cant e tix be up for sale?..haix..no choice..had to tune in to yes 933 for more info ba..aiyo..really double headache lehx...
aniwae..this will be my last post b4 sch reopen..no more slacking...no more lazing..no more sleeping after 10am..no more daydreaming..no more shopping anytime..no more fun..no more homecooked lunch...no more no more..........................................
nxt sunday is jj's party le..still on hunt 4 ppl to go with me..lolx...i got like 3 tix on hand..toking bout this party..it will oso be a selling session for his upcoming concert..again..wad pricing should i get arhx??..headache man...but e most headache thing is...5566 is coming for a sorta concert at may 20th...and i still dunno how to get tix for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...lolx..why cant e tix be up for sale?..haix..no choice..had to tune in to yes 933 for more info ba..aiyo..really double headache lehx...
aniwae..this will be my last post b4 sch reopen..no more slacking...no more lazing..no more sleeping after 10am..no more daydreaming..no more shopping anytime..no more fun..no more homecooked lunch...no more no more..........................................
(lets guess who is this???
ans is..........................our 'handsome' zax)
(indeed 'nice' hairstyle)
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
after chalet
Yo!!!..i am back from e chalet..haha...actually intended to blog earlier..but i fall asleep at round 4pm after 2 hrs of television...haix..until now my body is still aching like hell..haix...tink is e bed problem...plus i long time nvr exercise my legs...only swam for 1 hr and i cant take it le...and long time nvr play arcade de fighting games..thus my hands hurt too...sobs...
MON: agreed to meet feiyan liqun and liane at 2pm...but as i am a little slow..i only left home at 1pm..so i expected to reach late..but i reach a few mins past 2..haha..and i am e 1st to reach!!!..really unexpected arhx...(e station is tanah merah lorx)..then went to take shutter bus to e chalet...veri qiao tt we oso met stifanie sim wess joanne...haha..so we all went together...ermm..time past quite fast on e 1st day..soon more ppl came and they all gathered to watch a movie..but i didnt..tink went out with some frens to walk walk...(dotx..i 4got wat happened le..ahx!!)..okok..then we went arcade and played some games...most of them played pool...buti dunno how to play..haha..learnt it b4 from someone else..but i jux cant catch e technique of playing..so i jux watched..watching others play can be fun too...nxt tink we went 4 some snacks b4 gg back to e chalet...played some games together b4 they gathered again for a horror movie..due to my ultra fright to horror movie..haha...i went to e room with feiyan they all to chat..so i guessed i only fell asleep at 3am+...
TUES: woke up at 8am+..didnt hav a good sleep..keep waking up..cos me light sleeper wad..so.. got waken up by many noises..dotx...one of those irritating noises is those airplanes..ah...they are always flying to and fro..haha..then we had breakfast..which is instant noodles..dun really like tt..so i only ate e noodles..and not e soup..then watched movie National Treasure...actually i am damm tired le...but e movie is still interesting enough 4 me to watch it finished..hehe..so all of us went out to e arcade at round 1pm..it was still raining..then played games again...and they bowl too..as usual i only watched..haha...dun wanna make a fool out of myself..but i was psycho into playing pool..haha..stifanie taught me how to play..but i guess it was pretty hard on her..cos i jux dunno how to play!!!...haha..hmmm..but still not so bad la..learnt something...after tt..at 4pm+..liqun and liane went back..and the rest of them went biking..cos only 7ppl allowed to bike..so me and feiyan nvr go..but we went swimming instead..haha..its like e whole pool is for us..then swam for 1hr only..and we went back..ehh..we oso watched e movie Pacifier...but i 4got when le..dotx...aniwae we ate dinner (pizza and KFC)..at round 10pm i tink..haha..such a late dinner...luckily i already ate something at 6pm+...at night..we played games again..this time is play something like bi3 shou3 hua4 jiao3..veri funny...some things i dun even noe how to act out..haha..then when we cant guess out..we mux drink..(ya..is red wine)...haha..i am above 18 le...hmm..but i didnt really speak e whole night..dunno why lehx..jux dunno how to cut in..plus dunno wad to say..aniwae after e whole game..some of us are veri de red...drunk le ba...dunno how much i drank..not a lot ba...hmmm...this is my 1st time really drinking..other times is like only a sip or two...now is real drink..but i found e taste quite nice...hehe..thought i will drop after drinking...but i didnt..haha..then went to sleep at 1am+..cos tv showing horror movie again..i dun dare to watch...so went slp..but upon closing my eyes..e world now spinning lorx...dotx..but i am quite awake...haix...dunno how to explain..but but but i noe in am not drunk..haha...maybe due to e wine..i had a good sleep...yawnx..
WED: woke up round 9am...then pack up and we left at 10am+...but we missed e bus at 1015..dotx..so we waited till 1130 b4 setting off home..bye bye to e chalet le..then on e mrt trip home..i fell asleep..haha...nice sleep..
yeah..update finished le..actually got a lot of details i nvr write out...too tired cum lazy...and i wanna catch big long gold(da chang jin) at 10pm...haha..hmmm...nxt wk really is sch reopen le...veri sianx...really...i dun wan go back..aiyo..so used to slacking le...haix..shall end here ba..goodnite:)
some photos of e chalet..but only got pics of scenery..haha...no ppl....
MON: agreed to meet feiyan liqun and liane at 2pm...but as i am a little slow..i only left home at 1pm..so i expected to reach late..but i reach a few mins past 2..haha..and i am e 1st to reach!!!..really unexpected arhx...(e station is tanah merah lorx)..then went to take shutter bus to e chalet...veri qiao tt we oso met stifanie sim wess joanne...haha..so we all went together...ermm..time past quite fast on e 1st day..soon more ppl came and they all gathered to watch a movie..but i didnt..tink went out with some frens to walk walk...(dotx..i 4got wat happened le..ahx!!)..okok..then we went arcade and played some games...most of them played pool...buti dunno how to play..haha..learnt it b4 from someone else..but i jux cant catch e technique of playing..so i jux watched..watching others play can be fun too...nxt tink we went 4 some snacks b4 gg back to e chalet...played some games together b4 they gathered again for a horror movie..due to my ultra fright to horror movie..haha...i went to e room with feiyan they all to chat..so i guessed i only fell asleep at 3am+...
TUES: woke up at 8am+..didnt hav a good sleep..keep waking up..cos me light sleeper wad..so.. got waken up by many noises..dotx...one of those irritating noises is those airplanes..ah...they are always flying to and fro..haha..then we had breakfast..which is instant noodles..dun really like tt..so i only ate e noodles..and not e soup..then watched movie National Treasure...actually i am damm tired le...but e movie is still interesting enough 4 me to watch it finished..hehe..so all of us went out to e arcade at round 1pm..it was still raining..then played games again...and they bowl too..as usual i only watched..haha...dun wanna make a fool out of myself..but i was psycho into playing pool..haha..stifanie taught me how to play..but i guess it was pretty hard on her..cos i jux dunno how to play!!!...haha..hmmm..but still not so bad la..learnt something...after tt..at 4pm+..liqun and liane went back..and the rest of them went biking..cos only 7ppl allowed to bike..so me and feiyan nvr go..but we went swimming instead..haha..its like e whole pool is for us..then swam for 1hr only..and we went back..ehh..we oso watched e movie Pacifier...but i 4got when le..dotx...aniwae we ate dinner (pizza and KFC)..at round 10pm i tink..haha..such a late dinner...luckily i already ate something at 6pm+...at night..we played games again..this time is play something like bi3 shou3 hua4 jiao3..veri funny...some things i dun even noe how to act out..haha..then when we cant guess out..we mux drink..(ya..is red wine)...haha..i am above 18 le...hmm..but i didnt really speak e whole night..dunno why lehx..jux dunno how to cut in..plus dunno wad to say..aniwae after e whole game..some of us are veri de red...drunk le ba...dunno how much i drank..not a lot ba...hmmm...this is my 1st time really drinking..other times is like only a sip or two...now is real drink..but i found e taste quite nice...hehe..thought i will drop after drinking...but i didnt..haha..then went to sleep at 1am+..cos tv showing horror movie again..i dun dare to watch...so went slp..but upon closing my eyes..e world now spinning lorx...dotx..but i am quite awake...haix...dunno how to explain..but but but i noe in am not drunk..haha...maybe due to e wine..i had a good sleep...yawnx..
WED: woke up round 9am...then pack up and we left at 10am+...but we missed e bus at 1015..dotx..so we waited till 1130 b4 setting off home..bye bye to e chalet le..then on e mrt trip home..i fell asleep..haha...nice sleep..
yeah..update finished le..actually got a lot of details i nvr write out...too tired cum lazy...and i wanna catch big long gold(da chang jin) at 10pm...haha..hmmm...nxt wk really is sch reopen le...veri sianx...really...i dun wan go back..aiyo..so used to slacking le...haix..shall end here ba..goodnite:)
some photos of e chalet..but only got pics of scenery..haha...no ppl....
(e main gate of e resort)
(e chalets)
(view of e 'river' by e golf course)
(swimming pool)
(bowling ally..veri few ppl only...and i didnt take any)
(supposedly to be e view of e sea..looks like didnt take well..haha)
(lastly e bus shelter..and e schedule which i hate..cos waited an hour plus 4 e bus)
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
last wk
oh no...holx past so fast...now already e last wk of holx le...hmm...1/2 of me wan sch to reopen..but another 1/2 of me dun wan..haha...so used to slacking and waking up at 10 11 le...now go back to sch life...really..e thought of it is sianx...yesterday i finally got my beloved ipod...now only uploaded 137 songs...i can upload more actually..if not for my stupid com..which shut down on me 3 times yesterday...until i really fed up le..and decided to try again today..after i finish blogging..hmm..when will this com stop giving me problems???...cannot watch videos cum listen songs already veri de sianx le..now even cannot manage e itunes...lolx..
this wk...got to try new dishes..thanx to janice...haha...hmm..a breakthrough for me ba..normally..i wont touch food tt i nvr eat b4..but this wk i tried 2 new ones..tt is clam soup..which i only drank less than 1/3..and smoked salmon pizza...mayb i am little too picky with food..i dun eat A LOT of food..including beef mutton seafood(except prawn and fish)..and many more which i shall not elaborate..but there is one food which i cannot tolerate..tt is crab!!!..i really cant stand it...dunno why..i hate CRABS!!!
aniwae..tmr gg to chalet le..up till now i havent pack or buy any food yet..haha..shall leave everything to e very last minute..then rush like siao...wondering to bring mp3 or discman there..haix...bring discman then mux bring cds..but bring mp3 mux buy batteries...lolx..no money to spare already le...but i wont bring ipod 4 sure...haha..cos i scared i will break e fragile screen with my stuffs...hehe..u will nvr noe how clumsy i will get...aniwae shall update till here only...will update again when i return..bye..
VS
(See e difference..OMG..he looks so *dotx in his style in shi2 shen2..still preferred his old fashion look...)
(style in shi2 shen2) (normal shuai fashion look)
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
update
hmm..seems quite a long time since i updated...haha...actually oso not much things to update la...jux stay at home and enjoy e time passing...such a great pleasure to watch time pass...haha..currently watching campus superstar finals..actually not really following much on this show..so far i only like to watch(hear) teresa sings...after tt i will switch channel le..then almost everyday..morning..i will be online...and playing e quiz..The Wicked..recommended by mingyi..but i am really getting veri sick of e game...cos i am stuck!!!!..at level 26...frustrated..i cannot figure out wad's tt stupid logo....ahhh...so anione who hav e ans to tt...can kindly tell me..b4 i decide to give up..hahafinally got e 1st ipod of my life..but i regret buying at there le...sobs...why did i let my mum persuade me to preorder it????..haix....now i hav to wait dunno how long for it to fly from US to me....sighz..why did i say tt??...becos apparently...e place i bought it is an apple centre..supposed to be e main store...and it was out of stock...so hav to preorder it la..then last friday..at westmall..found tt there are a lot left at harvey norman..dotx...should hav gone to wm to hav a look first...but fine...i shall wait....................................
yesterday april fool's day...i got fooled!!!...ahhh by jac...so stupid of me...to call her almost immediately...but nvr mind....of cos i wont take it to heart...cos this reflects tt i am veri de trusting cum care for friends...hahahaha..
results for campus superstar is out...which is zhiyang...hmm..not much feel..so shall not elaborate animore...haha...aniwae i am not into this thing...lastly..sincerely wish renfu will take veri good care of himself in shanghai..why nvr update ur blog yet???...hahaha..i am getting crazy le...
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