Thursday, August 28, 2008
electronic new world
the world is indeed getting more and more advanced and electronised..am i gg backwards...or outdated??...or is the technology too fast for me to catch up???..lol...i really feel i am like still living in e old world of paper and pens instead of computers and pdas...
aniwae...advancement in technology is really a big WOW in this world now..a lot of new new things keep appearing...well...i am actually not such a IT or technological person...ermm...how to say...ya...still will like those new new products...still very into iphone or itouch...though i got no money to buy...but not tt into also..so ya lor...what am i saying??..lol...speaking of iphone..i have given it up completely...too ex for me to afford...sadded...so my next target maybe just itouch???...lol...no need for these things actually...but i just itchy hand feel like buying..lol...not so fast la...must save up first...lol
aniwae...main purpose is not to say all above rubbish la..just tt recently our ward...or this week...had also started using eimr...errrr...very irritating application...no more paper imr lo...all onto e com...and pda...with ultra slow response and reception...can serve med dunno what time lo...haix..really use until want to throw the whole pda away le...haix...maybe still first week using so not used to it ba...but really...is...ermmm...i dun think it can really help in reducing med errors or wat..cos u still need to dispense out the med yourself...unless invent or bring in the machine when u click..then e medicine fall out itself la...then maybe no more med error lo...lol...but i wont be surprised tt when years to come..this might happen...
haix..everything gg into computer nowadays...lab test order forms...lab results..xrays results...now imr orders...next on maybe our documentation too...lol....not bad if documentation can be computerised...cos i think i type faster than i write...then dun need to waste pen ink also...since my start of work in may...i think now i am using the 5th or 6th pen le...and all is used to the end tt kind one...lol...i thought i no longer need to write anymore when graduated...now...is e opposite...i write more than i am in school...lol..
aniwae...next wk onwards will be independent lo...quite looking 4ward in a way...cos i will finally know how well i can cope alone...ok la...now though i need only min help..but sometimes and somethings i need to ask also...haix...med test today was ok...i wasnt as scared as yesterday...partly because yesterday i not feeling very well oso ba...but today is fine...went through smoothly (excluding the pda hang..lol)...so tmr is my theory test...so fast right???..lol..i actually agreed so fast...but i havent read up a thing yet...can die die die lo...haix...tmr then c how ba...now i so tired to study...woke up 4am today...until now...my eyes so heavy le...want to sleep but cannot sleep...so miserable...
ok..i shall not waste time updating anymore..to get back to some studying now...but now i realised tt i left most materials in the ward locker..study what????...haix...shoot me pls..
i am troubled now...when is my next off day???...lol...i just had off 2 days ago actually...but i yearning for another one now...next roster not out yet...but it should be better ba..5days work week..meaning i have more rest days...yeah...haha...but i wan my annual leave can???..lol..i am so greedy...better clear all my tests or course first ba...
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008
dark side of human nature
Are humans good in nature?...or evil in nature??...perhaps most ppl are kind and good in nature...but there are bound to be some bad ones to balance up this world...sometimes i realise that the more educated a person is...the more faults tt the person will have...it is not surprisingly to see that most unreasonable and rude ppl...are those of a higher status or educational level...tt's not strange actually...the more a person study...the higher the person is in e social rank...the more he/she will think tt he is right and is more knowledgeable than others...but of cos..this is definitely not the case..
it is a sad thing actually...when will it take for these ppl to realise that...one cannot be perfect and be in charge of everything..and one can never be more knowledgeable than other...yes...u may be e top in you work...but when it comes to other ppl's work...u are just nothing...it is really irritating to see someone...acting that he knows a lot and thus demands the maximum...while in actual fact...he knows nothing about the truth at all..so what is so great about a ppl wearing a high class suit...but yet being so unreasonable in other locations...speaking to others as if others are all lower class than him or what???...the rude and unreasonable demands of these ppl...is really a disgrace to human...
the dark side of human nature..
人啊，要到什么时候才能了解，当自己懂的越多时，其实也正代表着自己所知道的知识是多么微不足道。就有如人类不停的探讨宇宙的奥秘时，才发现其实对这个宇宙的了解是多么渺小。
一个人，是无法知道所有事情的。你在某个领域或许是领导者，但在另一个领域，你却什么都不是。人人平等，各个行业也平等。但可惜，在这个世界上，这个道理少数人能体会。穿的越是高级的人，读的越是多书的人，往往越是不可理喻，蛮不讲理，没品没礼貌的人。
人性的丑陋，往往在不知不觉中，展现出来。
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Friday, August 15, 2008
olympics
Today is a rest day again...slacked at home whole day...sleep and watch tv...haha...i am so sleepy...lol...feels like sleeping every second...watched olympics too...nice to watch sometimes...haha...congrats to singapore in securing a medal...haha...hope we do get one day of extra ph...oops...am i thinking too much???
i have nothing interesting to update about actually...nothing special..haix...just normal daily routine...pay is coming soon in 10 days again...i am itching to spend again..i have never ending list of things to buy...lol...anyone...just ask me out ok???...i wanna shop ++..i wanna eat ++...how nice if i can go out and have fun everyday...then dun need to work oso have money drop from the sky..lol...wait long long also dun have ba...
Haix..i am lacking of one entertainment recently...cannot play my ds lite le...because the charger blow on me...causing my whole house to black out...lol...
aniwae...roster for next few days quite ok...work 3 days..rest day again...yeah...haha..but one sad thing is i thought i dun have night shift this month anymore...now end up have again..next fri sat...sian-ed...so tiring..yesterday work oso tiring...cos in female cubicles...really testing my limits...somemore after work still have training...in e end go home like 5pm like tt...haix...training...i just slept most of the time...drifting out of reality..lol...really cannot take it ma...teach about e eimr...using pda to serve meds...haix..what is this world coming to...everything is electronised...so high tech everywhere...if one day computer decided or electricity decided to fail on us...i think we all will die le...
so far so good...heard from sister tt next roster onwards we will be independent le..i am scared...sure cant make it de...but no choice had to tahan...and i havent pass my med test yet...lol...but aniwae..these few days quite happy..cos i have finally successfully cannulate lo!!!!!...yeah..haha..
it just takes a tiny thing or event to make me so happy...and rarely some things can make me feel sad...so if i am sad...means something is really not right ba...
but sadly...even if i am quite happy now...i am not very happy actually...hmmm..chim...wat i am saying exactly...lol..haha..aniwae...walk one step see one step...dun think too much first...yup...tt's the way of my living now...jiayou everyone...haha...
(P.S: wonder when can i take my annual leave???...this year i only have 14 days...sobs...better than nothing actually...haha...but when can i utilise it???...we still so new yet...who dare to say wan take leave...haix...)
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Tuesday, August 05, 2008
old sec sch friend
Went out with mingyi last sunday...so long time no see lo...haha...surprisinly i was not late for once...but she was..lol...went to city hall area to walk walk...actually me intend to buy things de...in e end we just talk talk all the way and nvr really shop...lol...nice time catching up actually...sorta envy her and of cos others tt they will start uni (actually started)..and continue studying...haix..studying is still e best times ba...but i am stuck with this stupid job...today even kana sister scold oso...haix...
aniwae...bought an old korean show also...winter sonata...haha...had been wanting to watch it...so buy since it is cheap...but to my surprise..my mum buy the same thing too...lol..in e end we have 2 identical sets at home...actually wanted to go for fir concert this fri..but when we walked to e sistic...already closed...haha...then e cheapest tix also left single seats only...what bad luck we hav...but aniwae...currently trying to bid for it at ebay..hopefully can get...love gg to concerts...lol...lets see how it goes...haha
today ended work on time...but i first time really feel fainting spells at work..normally i just feel a little giddy when i worked too long without food..but today..i actually feel myself swaying and e world spinning...haix...so my mum knows and scolded me of cos...i agree with her..no point harming my own health due to a stupid job...haix...so next time..i will find time to go eat de...haha...but perhaps is because of my low blood pressure also ba...lol..so will feel giddy easily..mingyi also same problem as me..i thought mine is bad enough 85/40mmhg...but hers worse..80/20mmhg...omg...like dying person like tt...lol...but really...feels great tt we still have a lot of things to talk about la...
tmr will be night shift...i must must must find chance to do cannulation le...left 4 more to complete...haix...so suay...i tried 5 times already but 4 fail..so must continue to do...dun feel like completing...but sister definitely will scold again ba...left 2 weeks to complete this checklist...stressed...next wk med test with sister also..double stress...my life is becoming so stressful now...
aniwae...next month will have fixed roster...so i must planned now..hmm...really dunno what shifts to choose le...so long hours due to 5 days work week..7-4, 1-10, 9-8...haix...plus now is 4 night shifts in a row...what should i do...so hard to decide shifts...somemore is fixed roster...shall i just leave for them to anyhow decide for me???...haix...troubled...
it is really getting more harder for me to stay on in nursing now...how???...
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Friday, August 01, 2008
money rules
Money is no doubt the most important thing in this world...(erhmm...dun get me wrong here...relationships not considered as thing actually...)...with money...u can really do almost everything u want to do..buy anything u want...and of course...go anywhere u like...i have so much things in mind to buy now...but of course i cant buy everything i want...Choosing and deciding is impt hence...but...i dun want to choose...i just want everything i like....
OMG...i sure am greedy...but buying things tt u like really lighten my spirit...makes my day happier...hence...i almost always buy without much thought...but now...there are too much things tt i want to buy...so how...
haha...only solution...is to choose what to buy first...others can wait till other months...(nope...i am not gg to say choose what to buy..but rather buy everything i want...slowly...)...lol...no wonder i spent my salary all...no wonder i am always almost broke at end of the month...no wonder my mum wants me to hand over half of my salary to her to keep...
lol...ok..i am rambling now...just ignore me...nothing better to write le...but really...the fun of working is only when u get the deserved pay and spend it on things that makes you happier...lol...why work if u dun buy anything at all????...life is short and full of surprises and accidents...who knows when and what will happen next...so just grab any opportunities to be happier...and to enjoy...i maybe quite irresponsible writing these now...but this is e truth and is a fact...maybe i still need some years to mature more...need some years more to realise the real importance of saving...but now..just like me be wild and spend lotx first...lol...
so what exactly have i bought since i start working???..just a short list to keep track of my spendings..lol...
- mayday stuff (a lot...lol)
- clothings
- guess bag and wallet
- my hair...(lol)
next on the list
- musiQ mp3 player
- ipod classic (ermm...tentative only..still deciding)
- iphone (or any other phone...)
- more albums
- more clothings and shoes...
haha...aims like tt makes work easier and makes time pass faster...ppl indeed need dreams to live on actually...e value of living..lies in dream...although this year...i am living quite a 'dreamless' life..but this is not gg to continue...my dream of entering a uni is still there ba...i still want to study up till today...but of course..i dunno whether this will continues and persist until next yr..or until i am more financially capable..but next year i will definitely try to enter uni again...haix...sad tt i gave up my chance of studying this year...but is ok ba..since psychology may not be my aim after all...nvr mind...i still have months to think of what i want to study anyway...or maybe i will just even continue working if i can cope...maybe...i dunno..
tmr is afternoon shift...i am not sleeping now..cos i dun want to wake up in e middle of night again...ended my night shift 2 days back...tired man...i didnt close my eyes for these 2 days...just work throughout...after my last night...surprisingly i am not tired at all...even talk with my mum until 1pm b4 i go and sleep for a while...i think i am too tired to feel tt i am tired...lol...
lets hope next month roster will be good...lets hope i can finish my checklist fast...deadline's coming...haix...lets hope i can get some annual leave...lol...i need holiday soon...i need more rest days...
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