Thursday, March 29, 2007
thought of the day
Dont know since when...this blog of mine became a place for me to recall what i did or experienced...most of my recent entries here are events of what i did...but not what i feel...or think...or...how should i say it???...hmmm...well i tink my 1st few entries in this blog are completely different style as now ba...Had it gotten better?..or worse??..i dunno...but i certainly to know tt plainly jux writing life events are quite boring sometimes...Perhaps as we grow up...things tt we intend to say out goes through more 'filters' b4 we truely express them out...be it on paper...on screen or in words..we tend to think more b4 we do or even say anything now...maybe tt explains why i only write plainly events rather than feelings...i hate to admit..but e truth always hurts...
Then as we grow older...regardless physically or mentally..we would slowly realise tt there is no such thing as black and white...or true or false in this world...there maybe other things like maybe true..seems true...maybe false etc...so is not so easy to c things in 2 different extremes...there goes e same for feelings towards a person...perhaps in pri sch or younger..we can say things like i like her..or i hate her..she is my friend..or she is my enemy..but now...it seems harder to differentiate...cos we hav too many factors to consider...b/w hate and like...there are still things like like a little bit..not tt like...or not hate not like...we are not into extremes now..but rather..we are always 'swaying' in e middle...even in survey forms...we are very likely to pick e middle option too...isnt it??...
ok..after blabbering for so long..dunno anyone understand or not..haha...maybe i am e one who is being indecisive only ba...even if i already made a decision to a thing...i may hav second thoughts to it after few mins...this is quite irritating i noe..but maybe this is in my genes..haha...like once i hav gotten something..i would be thinking of e next thing to get...or whether i had chosen the wrong thing etc...hmm...in the end..i oso dunno what i wan truely le...simple words to put this...is zhi4 xun2 fan2 nao3..everytime i would tell myself to endure to jian1 chi2...once i overcome this barrier..everything will turn out fine...but it dun seem tt way lehx...problems are ever coming and not ending...and what exactly am i jian chi-ing for???...what do i want exactly???....why exactly am i holding on???...if i am not happy with my life now...why must i still hold on to it and not make any major changes???....but tt goes back to e 1st qns...life is not jux being happy or unhappy..there are still other things to it...e world doesnt revolve around me...and there are jux to many things and people to think about...
haix mayb i should jux stop thinking bout all tt...and remain e way i am now...happy or not??...is not tt important afterall...
18:27
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
no. 23
Whoa...long time no update le..haha...actually oso nothing much to write la...didnt really do a lot of things this holx...right now...i am typing this post on my bed...haha...because e singtel person jux came today to fix e mio thing..thus i can enjoy wireless surf anywhere in my house now...yeah...haha...last time so inconvenient to hav e com in living room...now hav laptop can move anywhere i like le...last thurs went kbox with reg...intended to go with stif and yy oso de...but stif working...then yy last min back out...ahhh..left me and reg...but still we went kbox at cine...we sang for quite long...almost to 6hours le...haha...i now then realise tt we had so much songs to sing...lolx...but at e end our voices oso quite sore le la...dunno why like singing so much...though i dun sing very well...but i jux like it...singing really boosts my mood!!!...
today went to see movie with my mum...yeah...won a pair of tickets to a preview...the number 23...nice movie...looks scary..but towards e end it is jux a simple murder movie..ending is quite cool oso..ok...i prefer happy ending la...although e movie ending is not exactly a nice happily ever afer ending..but it is e best ending this movie can offer le...aniwae...i shall not say much bout this movie le..and its plot...cos it is only on screen 29/3..shall not spoil e mood of those who wanted to watch it...afterall it's a mystery...
next wk gg back to attachment le..quite looking 4ward to this 4days posting...yeah i love babies..haha...ok...late already..shall end here...nitex to everyone who reads :)
00:18
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Saturday, March 17, 2007
sec sch gathering at cine
(me and mingyi on e bus)
(cake at stif party last wk...nice)
(e no flask view of e cake)
(group photo..too bad i dun hav e photo with our 'whole' class one)
ok..wonder why this post hav so little words..tt's becos i jux accidentally deleted my whole complete post...ahhh...irritating man..now i am too frustrated to retype everything...aniwae..today went out with shermin jacq and mingyi..our small sec sch gathering..haha..nice time chatting with them...hope to meet up with them soon :)
tt's all i am gg to write 4 today...still angry with e com now...delete my post...ahhhh!!!!
23:07
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Friday, March 16, 2007
YEAH!!!
YES!!!!..After much persuation (ok plus tears)...finally convince my dad to let me go for e australia trip..wooohooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...HAPPY++++++++(PS: i failed to tag at e cbox due to some errors.. re to liane...i really dun understand why u always like to ask these type of questions...if u wan...ask others instead can???...)
16:54
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
exam results
As i'd said, yesterday was e release of our exam results..strangely this time..i didnt receive e sms from sch in e middle of e night..instead i got it at afternoon 1449...hmm...actually i already went online to c e results le..my gpa dropped again...i guessed it was expected...it never went up for me b4...jux keep dropping since sem 1..haha...aniwae my results..quite ok la...but i got no As strangely this time...HS2035: dist
HS2036: dist
HS2043: B+
HS2081: dist
HS2118: B+
HS4203: B
HS2120: C
As USUAL..my attachment result sucks..expected...well..i hoped next sem attachment can improved a bit..C+ oso ok for me..haha...ok..shihwee...jia you for next sem...for now...jux relax and slack!!!...HAPPY HOLX!!!!!!!!!!
13:42
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Monday, March 12, 2007
stif party cum IT fair
Yeah finally 2 wks attachment had come to an end...i sorta quite enjoy myself there la...with all e kids plus some really nice parents..then sat went to stif party...meet some friends at woodlands mrt then go together...strangely i am e 1st to reach...its quite ironic as i used to be e latest since like sec sch days...i was known to be late..haha...drank a bit of alcohol there...haha..stif's dad keep asking us to drink finish...especially towards e end of e party..we stayed till quite late...by e time i reach home is 0015...but..i didnt get drunk la...or giddy or watever...hmmm....afterall i didnt drink a lot..alcohol is bad for health lehx...haha..got pics of e party..when i hardworking enough then post up..hahahahahathen yesterday went to IT fair at suntec..reach there 11plus..e place not opened yet..but already a lot of ppl...then went there look look see see...lunched at marina sq b4 gg back there again..whoa..by 2pm...there was a lot of ppl...even had to 'queue' b4 u can go in there...really a sea of ppl..haha...in e end bought a dell laptop for my sis...lucky her...i dun even hav a laptop too...
yesterday...spent all my efforts to persuade my mum to let me go for e australia trip...in e end still effort wasted...she insist tt i can only choose one to go..either e taiwan trip or this one..so bad of her...hmm...so i wont insist now...my family not tt rich too...afterall jux bought a new notebook..ahhhhh....i shall stop thinking about it....my mum say e desire will go in some time.....lolx..stupid saying...but i wont force again...haix...too bad la...tt's all i would say... :(
ok..supposedly results will be out tmr..haha...hope i dun do too badly..heard tt paeds paper is not very well done for our class..haix....today actually got co la...but in e end postponed to tmr..which i am not free...so will go on wed early ba...had to teach my 'junior'...jia you..
i shall end here...time to go out le..haha..bye
11:39
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Friday, March 02, 2007
update...kana bullied :(
update update!!!..haha..jux a short update here...finally wkend is here..yeah!!!!!!..although got assignment to rush...but e thought of waking up late..is great!!!..attachment is lax today...but i am kana bullied...maybe...maybe i did bully others too...but it really sux to let others noe ur weak point...now i mux be careful with my words...............tmr supposedly gg dinner with some pri frens..cos they gg to army soon...but right now...errmmm still not very confirmed.....hmmmmm...jac...u are taking too long to reply a sms!!!!!!!...(if u see this...no offence ah...haha)
20:23
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Thursday, March 01, 2007
paeds attachment----interesting yet sianx
Today's e 4th day of my paeds attachment le..fast...left 1 wk + to go...morning shift today..so can go online..haha..but yesterday afternoon..so like damm tired at ward today...i tink i can jux fall asleep standing...really nothing much to do there...got many things to learn..but less things to do...ok...children and babies are soooo cute...tt's e fun part...and i get to play with them...rather most time are spent playing and chatting rather than doing...oops...am i slacking away at ward??..but everyone like tt...cos parents with child so really nothing to do..no sponging feeding..only para para..io chart...then meds serving quite different from adult oso...hmm..must grab chance to serve since i already learnt..Aniwae..had to choose where to go for prcp posting by end of this month le...but i tink i will submit it next wk ba...easier dun need go back nuh again...haix..got OT, A&E, ICU, medical, surgical, paeds, O&G, oncology to choose from...hmmm...really dunno what to pick...tink i will put o&g as 1st ba...then e other 2 havent decide yet...paeds mayb...but definitely not icu or ot..hmm...so fast choose..i oso dunno my interest in where...babies perhaps????..so choose O&G..haha..dunno la.....
Haix..despite infrequent updates here...i still hav nothing much to write...mayb my life too boring and plain le..aniwae..got to do research for my assignment le..shall stop here...bye
16:29
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