Wednesday, September 29, 2010

blur queen no.1

I am indeed a blur queen for today...hopefully today only...was on the bus this noon, then suddenly decided to listen to songs...so took out my iphone and wanted to play...in e end...i key in 5255 as my password (which i always tot i did)...to my horror(yup really horrifying)...it shows wrong passcode...this 4 no 5255 seems deeply encoded to my brain...so i keep trying to key in over and over again but all ended up wrong passcode...until my phone is locked for 60mins...dunno how many times i've tried to let it lock for 1hour...but i still wont give up on 5255...cos i really remembered my passcode as 5255, if not how did i manage to use my phone for the pass few days????

So i ended up calling the technical helpline...started searching for the nearest apple care center...etc etc...i even imagined the worst maybe i sleepwalk or wat to change the passcode without knowing it...in e end...gt a suggestion to call my sis to ask her what password i used (cos e prev night she managed to guess my password) then what i hear was 5525?????!!!!!!!??????? lol...after the one hour lock pass...i key in 5525 and it unlocked!!!!..shit...what have i been doing for the past 2days???...keying in 5525 subconsciously and remembering it as 5255....i think i am the super top no 1 blur queen of the century le!!!!!...well...now i changed another passcode le...wont mess up this time le...maybe i should just do away with the whole password thinggi...

Haix...for my past 21+yrs of living i never tot i am so blur de...i've nvr been so blur ah although i may be forgetful or clumpsy at times...but definitely not like tt...did i not used my brain for too long that it is showing signs and symptoms of ageing????...arhx!!!!...scary...i think i must do more sudoku word puzzles...read more books...

22:57

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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

advancing in work

21:10

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Sunday, September 19, 2010

late night

loves saturday now...so used not to count down to any weekend...but now...i need to count down to every weekend...i can say TGIF...i can thoroughly enjoy my saturday...and i will too be sad on sunday cos monday is another working day...and of cos...i will have the usual monday blues like most ppl...weird feeling...after 2yrs of irregular working hours...shift work...especially nights...i am finally living like a normal person...still not too used to it yet...still loves gg out on weekdays when there are minimal ppl (boo..where got lesser ppl nowadays???...every hour the mrt and buses are packed!!) dun like shopping on weekends...chances are i wont buy anything...izzit a gd thing actually??? but the trains are really horrible...the shopping places are packed...everything u wanna eat is full of ppl unless u want to choose those ulu ulu ones la...sianed to the max

last week was really fully packed...everyday i know i dun have enough sleep...yet i still wanna stay up late every night..but i sorta like this kind of feel...this busy feel...well...i guess humans must definitely do things...so that she/he can feel that he is actually alive kicking breathing...rest is definitely good...but subject to a time limit...too much a rest is a torture too...aniwae...next week is another whole 5days of work...to me...this job is good for interim..if long term working there...i may not adapt at all..i think i am not used to relax working style...but of cos tt does not mean i miss ward crazy times!!..just tt i feel that i am quite stagnant here...although i learn new things as well...but it is just not that i wanted...maybe i had not gotten used to here yet...maybe i had not know anyone else yet except my ex-colleagues...just feel weird gg there la..hate this kind of feeling that u need to break into another 'family'...like they are already well formed and here comes us like a needle breaking in ...which is difficult of cos!!!...haix...hope things will get better...although not many ppl take note of us agency nurse...though we are there like perm staff already..but i still feel it will be hard for us to break in...or rather for my case la...since anyone who known me long enough will know...i will definitely not talk to anyone unless we have a common topic...and i am really not tt kind who will create topics to talk about unless i know u well enough...guess this is something which makes me harder to know new friends..not tt i am anti social just i dun like to just smile smile and try to talk those useless things...plus second point...i think i have a serious age gap with them..ya...tt makes things more difficult..not that i am still young la...although i am 22 le...but i think ppl there are alnost all older than me 5yrs and above..plus...if u consider my mentality...i think i am still remaining in the age of 16's thinking...still refusing to grow up...still thinking of childish things...and still behaving like a kid as my mum says...so our age gap are like 10yrs and above apart????? boo...how to talk???...no common topics definitely....and way of thoughts are miles apart...

sad...somemore next week will be me alone le...serene a friend whom i known as we joined there together is not continuing with our job scope...though she is still working there...but she will not be working daily like me anymore...so no more lunch partner...haix...i see dark clouds gathering in front of me...haix...forget it ..dun think so much la...i can survive alone as well...since this will not be long term as well...looking forward to 2011 feb...when i will try to enrol in uni again...wonder will nus fass take me back again since i rejected their offer this yr??? will they take that into consideration??? i hope not....well...life had been a wreck since i sent that email to inform moe to withdraw from the degree...although i often tell my family and friends nvr mind..i will find another course to study lo...its ok..etc...i nvr ever tell anyone that actually i feel terrible...really terrible inside...it is like taking so many turns...putting in so much effort...but end up...u still need to give up...to give up a dream is really difficult and is a real torture...although now i keep telling myself maybe i did not choose wrongly to give up...teacher lehx...where got so easy..it may be even more difficult than working in ward etc...at times i will still feel i can do it one actually..it is still a dream of mine...but now...i am throwing it far far away instead...since there is really no more chances for me to take back that path again...

so now...need to start again deciding a whole new path...what should i really do next??? fass is something which i know i will like la...but career path is not clear yet...biological science is something i like..but again...can i even admit to the course not??? then if i put it as first then fass as 2nd...what if i cannot get into both??? etc etc etc...difficult to decide..and i still cant make up my mind...indecisive??? maybe...perhaps...but i dun want to make a wrong choice again...this is probably my last chance to start over again...and i know clearly that there will not be a second time...so need to choose carefully...aniwae....4months more to think...

gg to 3am le...so tired...want to sleep but sadly cannot...hmmm...dun like to sleep on sofa...but no choice...aunt rarely comes need to give up bed to her...and cant possibly ask my mum to sleep sofa...then my sis..forget it she nvr even offer...so me lo...one day nvr mind la..

been and back from magic power's and ding dang's showcase...loves it!!!!!!! it was a fantastic performance...though there are some spoilers la...like the x2 opening due to equipment faulty...and weird ppl surrounding us...cannot really stand those youngsters...they have werid thinkings and behaviours...and they talked as if they already seen the whole world...lol...i dun remember myself being like tt in e past..but ppl nowadays are................................................................................................................................................................... endless negative comments...but the thing i hate most is scolding unglam or 'bad' words everytime...pls...this is a terribly negative reflection on yourself...and pls dun think that u are being very cool in doing this!!!...no manners at all...i dun think anyone in the school or family ever teaches you to say such things...sadly i think all these pl should return back to nursery or kindergarden to relearn the way of talking and upfront most manners...second hated is..speaking big words...acting adult...hear already also want to laugh...how old are you all???? dun talk as if u already seen all sorts of ppl in the world and been through all sorts of experience...it is stinging on my ears to hear such things...third hated is fan like behaviour...ok...sadly i am also a idol chasing person...been to countless autograph sessions or events...i will scream shout jump sing at those places...but i definitly wont do stupid things to try to get attention of them la...shouting names at inappropriate times..talking rubbish or meaningless things..take pictures of the shoe of them (lol...first time ever i see ppl do this...focusing the camera lens on shoes???!!!!!) and no offence..i even seen/heard some ah tiongs...(they are in sec school uniforms)...during auto session asking the idol for towels la watch la...stupid to the max...they think is funny...but it really is not...feel like hiding my face dunno why..although i dunno them...but i still feel ashamed...lol...difference between youngsters and me...i am a grown up matured...but they are not!!!!!...though i still at times behave and think like a 16...but my attitude is definitely not as childish as them!!!!

ok..sidetrack a lot...the performace is really great...just sad that ppl are not really tt high...even though the first row of mp's fans...i still feel they are not high enough...nobody actually jump tt much...but cheering ok la...and so paiseh that my lightstick fly out and hit the front person for the first time of my life...luckily it is just a slip off my hand...though it hit her...but not that hard..she dun even bother to turn back...luckily really...with my strength of waving lightsticks...just lucky tt at tt point of time i am not using much strength...lol...they sang well they played well...especially magic power...they are great at live...the fastest and best way to like someone is to see them in person and hear them sing live...hehe...

aniwae...havent mention about my guitar lesson...first lesson was ok...teaching basic music theory...though i know already some...but i still listen attentively...my 2 other friends are absoulute beginnings in music...i've learnt like 11yrs of chinese instruments...so basic music stuff i know...but i am a beginner in guitar...so need to really start from stretch....wonder how long will i take to play a song fully???..now still stuck at basic playing techniques...how to press the fret effectively...intended to practice at least 20mins daily de...but sadly after practising 20mins today...my hand actually grow blisters...so painful...now i dun dare to play for these few days in case the blister breaks and it will be so painful...already feel pain when i am typing here...haix...but but but...i will perserve on de....i guess this is a start that everyone will also go through when just starting to learn guitar...

haix...0316 now..i am dropping dead soon...eyes weary...legs tired..fingers pain...and my flow of thoughts is stopping gradually...end here...

02:29

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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

start of work again

It had been 2 days since the re-start of my work...0730-1630..still had not gotten used to the sleeping at 11pm waking at at 6am routine...yup and tt explains why i am still online now..work is a bit boring cos there is so many things to read up...and they say there will be even more...and this training will go on for one month more...oh gosh...u know when u are already sleepy...then u sit there in air con room and read...u will fall asleep easier and faster...yup...so now i am relying on my mp3 to keep me awake...reading with music is more effective for me i supposed...if not...i will really fall asleep...

tmr will be official start of guitar lessons...really looking forward to it...i hoped i wont be too tired...cos these 2days after work i had been gg out...9pm onwards i will feel the tiredness...haix...but upon reaching home i will be awake again...must force myself to sleep before 12 if possible...

things to do for the rest of this week
1) thurs guitar lesson + work
2) friday go for autograph session of MP+ding dang + work
3) sat go for ding dang's showcase
4) my official rest day of the week before working on monday again

23:05

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Thursday, September 09, 2010

winner

Happy +++++++++++++++++++

Won myself a pair of tickets to ding dang's showcase!!!

So happy...was so tempted to buy the tickets to her showcase but did not cos nowadays really
spent too much le...thus trying to win tickets from yes 933...

It was really a surprise for me to win cos i always dun have luck with such things de...

Really happy!!! looking forward to next week :)

1) start of work on tues
2) start of guitar lesson on thurs
3) autograph sessions on fri (comtemplating to go)
4) music showcase

23:27

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Wednesday, September 08, 2010

new guitar

Bought myself a new guitar finally!! it's an acoustic/electric one...actually simply means u can plug in to an amplifier and play...sounds good...smooth on my hands...and a built in tuner which makes things easier...but i still wanna get an external tuner though...dun really trust the built in one...next week shall go shop for one :)

Course officially starts next thurs...looking forward to it +++ one more friend to join me and emily...tt's elaine...haha...makes our fees cheaper...and much more fun as well...the more the merrier ma...contented...next week start work...plus start course...i predict a busy week...but i am looking very forward to it..

Spent a lot recently...on earphones, guitar, courses...nvr mind...shall earn that all back..loved swimming nowadays...i think my stamina is getting better...i can swim 16laps now...in competition pool ok?? i am so pleased with myself...swimming is a good sport...although not much effect in losing weight...but can train my stamina..and i dun like perspiring...thus swimming is good :)

13:19

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Monday, September 06, 2010

night anger

Feeling frustrated over some minor issues...i guess i am just way too bored at home...nvr mind...worst times gg to be over...i am starting work next week le...hopefully it will go on without anymore long breaks...i think when one spends too much time doing nothing, her thinking will become way too extreme...as well as her mood...will become easily irritable..not much plans for this week...probably gg to sign on the guitar course tmr...and buy a new guitar...borrowed some books from library...hopefully can finish reading by this week...i guess i can...2.5more books to go...i am falling in love with gidden's books..maybe not too many ppl can accept his way of writing...but i think i am ok with it...all the unusual incidents...disgusting storylines..i called it pervertic way of writing...yup...i must be mad to like his books..but well...if u read his other series like those love series...it is not too bad...just simple description of the characters...their thinkings...he called those simple innocent love...yup...no lies...no 'highs' and 'lows' just a simple story but yet will get you reading...and before u realise it, u are reaching the end of the story..not much climax...but the miracle thing is...u will yourself realise that u are falling in love with the character as well...without knowing it in the beginning...a cool way of writing...and of cos ...no bloody/sexual scenes so far in his love series books...

i guess not much ppl can accept those bloody or sexual descriptions in books...well at least not my family...meaning i will definitely not recommend those books to my mum or what even though she also enjoys reading...if not she will think what is this girl reading ??? corruptive material??? hahaha...well...when u are just beginning to read his books...you may find the descriptions or plot a bit lowly...but that is definitely not just pure pornographic material...i guess it is his way of describing what things are really like or happening...

well...after finishing the love series...i think i will start with the killer series...i hope it will not be too sick...lol...books are definitely more scary than any other horror movie...because...when u read u tend to imagine the scene in your head...and that scene will stay in your mind clearer and longer than any other movie scene...tt's why...if the descriptions are horrifying....i can imagine endless sleepless nights from now onwards...haha...

nothing much to update actually...sometimes i dun even know what to do when i switched on the computer...i guess there is really nothing happening in my life or around my life...so i guess...unless there is anything significant or interesting...i will not update here for the time moment..

23:24

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Friday, September 03, 2010

fire alert

Firstly, i was telling my sis sto close the door...cos must be the ah tiongs next door cooking tt's why so smelly and smoky...next...my mum was telling my aunt on the phone that downstairs very noisy...got ppl screaming and shouting...till then...i was still watching tv with my sis...happily...next thing we know..the coffee shop next block is on fire!!!...whoa...i think it is considered the biggest fire i've seen live in action (not counting those in tv shows)...a lot of ppl crowding the area...a policecar is there...but they arent doing anything...wierd...tot they should at least block off that area??...coffee shop lehx...and tt area is the cooking area so definitely got a lot of flammable objects ma??...few mins after the fire engine arrived...then they started blocking ppl and shoo-ing ppl away from the scene....and they actually used the water hose...the one where u connect to the red colour water thinggi...i dunno what u call that la..so it was really quite happening...cos rarely we get to see such incidents..needing to climb ladders spray water...but main thing is ...i think i am so not alert lor...

maybe i am just too into the novel which i just finished reading...by giddens... 精準的失控...it is a rather pervert or rather crazy book...haha...but after finishing..i think i am starting to understand why he uses such methodology to describe his plot...the rationale behind all the wierd plot...i am beginning to understand...all i can say he is really a good writer..in the end...the story just summarise what will u do if u can go back in time to change something??..and bear in mind..what u change...will not be just affecting u...it can cause a great impact in all the others around u...butterfly effect...which i strongly believe in...anyway...no point of me gg in details about the book...if u read it then u know what i mean...ya...and i must be really mad to like this book...

so from now on...i will try to read all the books written by him...although the way he write stories are rather crazy...but so what????...the world is crazy in a way as well...

aniwae...spent this week rather fruitfully..

monday went wild wild wet with emily and paula...it is a joke to think about this...intended to go je swimming complex de...end up it is closed...and everywhere else is like raining...so went to the east instead...thankfully it is all sunny there...had a fun time...and it is due to this day that we decided...seriously to go pick up guitar...

tues...went out with emily to funan and plaza sing...to find out more about guitar courses...even went back to bb to find out more...but with no avail...

wed..went out with emily...ya again...to swim...in the end i am the only one swimming...i think my stamina improved...i can swim 4laps le...wooohoo...end up getting burnt as well...went to jp to find out more about guitar courses again...went clementi also..but still...did not find what we want

thurs...yes...went out with emily again...first i went to mediacorp to collect jay chou's concert merchandise which i won from iweekly...then went bugis to meet emily for lunch at lets sweets...it is rather random...saw the pics on uweekly tt's why tempted to go try...well the caramel sea salt cake is really nice...other than that...it was ok la...not exactly fantastic...just find the 60mins restrictions too short..we were like stuffing food in cos we wanted to try all the cakes and stuff...but of cos we cant...after that went comex...initially intended to only spend not more than 2hours there...in the end..we were so indecisive...i managed to psycho emily to get a sennheiser brand earphone instead of audio tech...successful...then we spend hours at the sennheiser booth to try the earphones...namely the cx 300-ii in ear and hd 228 headphones...in the end...we both get the cx 300-ii..as it was more convenient...though the headphones were really great...explosive bass effects really...but it was really bulky and needs a great volume to power it up...so we decided to get the in ear instead...haix...initially i wanted to get ie 6 de...but it is so pricely at 299...haix...maybe next ear ba..but i wont give up on that...

yup...after comex went to funan to ask more about guitar courses again..this time...we decided...but havent register yet la...cos need emily to confirm her roster etc...also went to penisular there to look at a lot of different guitars...the electric ones all look so cool...haha...oops...but i want to learn acoustic la...so it is more or less decided...that we will go there next tues to register and to buy a new guitar...excited +++ ...although i have learnt musical instruments for more than 10yrs...it is the first time i am learning this outside of school..and first time learning something not related to chineses instruments...hope i have the patience to perserve on...if i can master this...the next thing to try will be the drums le...ok..i am getting too far...

aniwae...it is really crazy to meet the same person for 4days in a row!!!...my first time doing such things...lol...luckily we got a lot of topics to talk about...haha...aniwae..anticipating learning guitar officially..

23:42

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