Shi Hwee

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

missing mayday post concert day 3

post concert day 3..i am suffering from a serious post concert syndrome...they are still consistently in my mind...medicine to cure...is a higher and higher dosage of their songs everyday...will i get toxicity???...lol...seriously...i am still in e concert mood...still feel high time to time...singing their songs whenever i can...and jumping when i feel high enough...feel like telling everyone how great their concert is and how i love them lots...how how???...haha...i am getting crazy...lol...

ok..pls pardon me...cos i really really have not enjoyed myself to such a maximum le...so until now..i am still not willing to let go of this feeling...i still want to feel high every moment...lol...and my hand is still aching for goodness sake...is post day 3 le lehx...have i really used so much strength???..


雌雄同体

PM七点 镜子前的自己　琢磨属于自己的美丽
轻轻刮去嘴角胡青　画上我的本性　淡紫色眼影
粉色双唇的喃喃自语　嗯～～～啦～～～～

领带要配苏格兰裙　和火一般的羽毛围巾
只是我仍在反覆考虑　搭配几号香精　做今晚的内衣
即使到最后你还是看不清　即使到最后你还是看不清

我要你看到我你不该猜测应该享受
我要你爱上我你不该猜测应该爱我
我可以是男是女　可以飘移不定　可以调整百分
只要你爱我一切都没问题　只要你爱我一切都没问题

与其让你了解我　我宁愿我是一个谜 一个解不开的难题　
真和假的秘密　 扣你心弦的游戏
模仿你或和你变成对比　参加你理想的爱情游戏

你也许避我唯恐不及 你也许把我当作异形
可是你如何真的确定　灵魂找到自己的样貌和身体
发现自己原来的雌雄同体　发现自己原来的雌雄同体

i am getting influenced so much by this song...actually..initially i am quite afraid of listening to it...cos u see..a bit wierd la...but e music is yet so captivating...so ya..now i am in love with it oso...especially one of the sentence (highlighted)..dunno why..i just had a 'feel' with this sentence...hmmm..makes me wanna think more..but hmm...i dunno how to say la...just a special feel for this..haha

actually..they really have a lot of songs..and more than 99.999% are very nice ones...dunno why..the lyrics of e songs are just so...close to our lives..and thus..very touching...really want to collect all their albums now..but i must wait..cos my financial status now dun allow me to buy all now...so i shall wait..give me one more month..i am gg to import them all in taiwan..lol..counted le...adds up to like 200+ bucks...but i am willing to spend on it..lol...maybe i am still childish or wat...cant bear to spend on fashion thinggis..but i am just willing to spend more on this type of music things...

music really plays a huge huge huge part in my life...since young..really since young...i am already bonded to music already...be it chinese songs...orchestra..all whatever la...well..everyone grows up with music in their lives..but not everyone has their lives influenced by music..i can seriously say tt i cant live without any music or songs in my life...be it whose songs or wat...maybe tt is e main reason why i nvr feel a pinch when buying albums after albums...recalling back..i remembered once i told my mum tt i will only buy one album and i will be satisfied with it and will not buy anymore...lol...like real lo...tt is my first time buying albums...and tt only motivate me to buy more..not stop...haha...

hmmm...buy more..and tt means i need more storage place...lol...haha...aniwae..pls...let me start work soon...if not i cant buy more...ya..now i really want to work..cos i wan money...hehe...so in e end...money is still e most important...without it...nothing can be done????...lol....

this realistic world....(shakes head)

23:15


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Sunday, April 27, 2008

mayday book autograph session

3 posts straight in one go...lol...slept enough during evening...so now dun need sleep le...lol...want to post everything when events are still fresh in my mind...now is time for pics...taken today at imm...during stone and ashin autograph session...both books are great...well though i havent really read through stone's one yet...but browse through le...not bad...but still...e recommendation is still ashin's one...well...pics oso ashin's one more...not tt i am biased...nope...i am not...haha...(perhaps...my camera is biased...lol...ashin photos all seemed nicer...but book wise..i really think tt escape/exile to japan is worthwhile reading...)


haha...very clear right...ashin's ones...cos i am in front..not many ppl blocking me...plus i wearing heels..so view better...lol...ashin is so tall...180cm...no kidding...

well aniwae...as usual...only post pics...videos...all keep for myself...lol...ok...i shall stop all these mayday thinggi...haha...

update bout current life...again...tv...internet...novels...currently reading a book entitled "never let me go" 别让我走...see the title like romance story right???...nope...entirely opp...though i havent finish...but see e summary le...is about clones as organ donators...ermm...maybe when i finished then write more bout this issue ba...

aniwae...waiting for call from nuh...what if they nvr call me???..then what shall i do??..call back??...i dun wan lehx..aniwae...see how see how lo...and yup...2 days back...received letter of offer from ntu le...degree in psychology...hmm...this is messing me and my thoughts again...makes me think more again...aniwae...since i already decided to work first le..i shall ignore tt ba...

yup...tt's all..needed sleep now...i am still tired from e concert...long time no exercise...my neck my shoulders my arm..am i getting old????

23:56


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down to earth concert details

song list...based on my memory and pics...used to do this for 56 concert too...not for wad...just for me to remember more clearly...

~opening video~
(cool thing here is those men 'flying' down from high high...haha...scary man...
but so exciting...scream scream)

~抓狂~
(whoa...opening song...high high...rocking...)

~香水~
(loved this song too...a nice k song to me...rock oso)

~叫我第一名~
(my sis fave...like it too...hokkien song...loved e beat...)

~为爱而生~
(slightly slower tempo song compared to above songs..but it is nice...
i loved e lyrics and e concept of this song)

~一千个世纪~
(slow song...fantastic lyrics...everylasting love...does it exist??)

~雌雄同体~
(one of my faves during concert...
我要你爱上我你不该猜测应该爱我。。。）

~爱情万岁~
（yup...my fave song of all...jump jump jump during this song
loved e lyrics loved e music loved everything here...)

~离开地球表面~
(a jump must song...
一颗心噗嗵噗嗵的狂跳 so...we oso 噗嗵噗嗵的狂跳)

~生命有一种绝对~
(think ashin sang this song perfectly...
深深被他的歌声感动）

~孙悟空~
（everyone sang in this song...ermm..except masa i tink...
aniwae...heard guai shou voice clearly too..he sings ok too lo..haha
mayday can still 'function' without vocal ashin...haha)

~小太阳~
(theme song for e concert...but to me like no link..
new song which i loved oso...loved e lyrics..especially
你的盼望是我握在手中小小的太阳 and
你让地球旋转 月亮发光 让我有翅膀）

~恒星的恒心~
（i like this song title...
of cos...e song is nice too
but a bit sad la)

~九号球~
(rarely sung song...is nice written by guai shou de..)

~离家出走~
(of la...a bit ermm...slow...but first time hearing this... )

~闯~
(chinese version of 永远的永远...preferred hokkien version...
but chinese version lyrics not bad too)

~生活~
(seldom hear this song lehx...hmm...this is e difference b/w a new and old mayday fan
but of cos..i will like it oso de_

~疯狂世界~
(song when ashin walked close to us...haha)

~intro and talking of every member~
(talking talking...finally hear e voice of mayday...besides ashin
guan you part funny...he keep on wanting to say something but keep on getting distracted..lol)

~happy birthday to masa~
(he cracked a stupid joke...lol..dun get it during e concert..
but look at what other fans writted...i tink i understand now...)

~垃圾车~
(another hokkien song..a great sing-a-long song)

~爱情的模样~
(liked this song too...very poetic)

~伊呀呀~
(new song by stone...written for his son...loving)

~最重要的小事~
(got ashin solo b4 e full band version...
loved it when ashin sings and plays e guitar...
guitar sound soooo loud during e concert...and nice...)

~我又初恋了~
(这一种feel...haha...my fave sentence...
got video of guaishou playing this song..clear clear...lol）

~恋爱ing~
（super long song...cos they trying to bring up e atmosphere more ba...
L---O---V---E)

~终结孤单~
(hey hey jump thinggi here...i tink so la...
nice song to bring up atmosphere too...
though e atmosphere high enough le...jump jump)

~洋葱~
(a nice soothing song...ashin reached e high key...haha...nice)

~轧车~
(all time fave...a song which i learnt word by word...cos is hokkien
is a must sing song lo...
oso got solo part of everyone...nice..talented musicians le...haha
嘿嘿嘿嘿。。。嘿嘿嘿嘿）

~温柔 （还你自由版）~
（oso a must sing song...and a well known song...
loved this edition of e song...
O.S: 如果有一天，你跟我说，你要离开
我想，我不会强求，我也不会挽留
只因为，我只能给你最后，最美，也是最好的温柔
你会听到我跟你说：

我给你自由。。我给你自由。。我给你自由。。。我给你自由
我给你全部全部全部全部自由！！！！

makes me wanna cry whenever hearing this...)

~倔强~
（meaningful song..especially when u are on e verge of giving up...just listen to this..
too bad is a cut short version..but still nice lo...haha)

~人生海海~
(usually...wont take much notice of this song la..for me..
but after hearing live one...find tt is a great song...to sing...and first time..
i finally understood e whole idea of this song)

~video~
(continued from e opening one...
hard to believe is encore le...)

~天使~
(nice song...to suit into e whole theme of e video...)

~知足~
(rock version...haha
everyone sings together...
e impact is just....too great...)

~离开地球表面 （毛巾版）~
(well..they didnt sing this...is a techno version..
then they just used their towels and waved and danced...sooo funny)

well...these are the songs...talking in b/w dun really remember where le...and oso the funny part when thanking the sponsors..
pictures...not very nicely taken...as i said...concert ma...engrossed in e music more...then e shutter just anyhow press...haha...btw videos taken nicer...cos got e nice music and singing...live...but of cos wont upload here ba...

(the coolest of all...sky bridge...)

21:12


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down to earth 26/4/08

！！！！五月天真棒！！！！

I am still deeply engrossed in their concert right now....out of all the concerts i went to...i can say now firmly....MAYDAY IS REALLY THE BEST...down to earth 2008 concert @ singapore indoor stadium...$171 well spent...i really loved it...haha...i am beginning to love mayday more...every member more..and of cos..loved ASHIN the best...

Stood up every minute yesterday...whats e use of the chair???...to seat my bag la...haha...jumped like mad...scream like mad...sing aloud like mad...i really JUMPED like dunno wad lo...perhaps due to e fact tt i loved jumping around at home too..sooo now...no after effects of tired legs or wad...(ps...i even wear heels to auto session today)...but my neck...and my hand...they dun belong to me now!!!!...especially my hand...pain pain pain...

Nonetheless...i loved it...aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....post concert syndrome now....their songs still ringing aloud in my ears...e sound effect is superb...e stage is superb...can see them real close...and of cos...their performance...no words can describe...oops...pardon me...i am still high now...
more detailed post about e concert later ba...with some pics...not very nice taken...cos i am busy jumping away...

Aniwae...reached home 1am yesterday..early as compared to the past...took e stadium express bus back...ate at mac...i was damm hungry lo...didnt dare to eat much b4 start of concert...i dun wan get stomach cramps...haha...wise decision...aniwae...cant get to sleep at night at all...keep waking up...my body and mind still excited...their songs still rapidly replaying in my ears...how to sleep...

Woke up early today...8 plus...then went imm for stone and ashin auto session...i was like so tired throughout lo...my hands trembling...so pics are blurry too..haha...luckily went early...so managed to grab some nice pics...

really dunno how to describe ashin le...just shuai is too....ermmm..i dunno la...just read his book...just look at his lyrics...just listen to his songs...just listen to his voice...or just look at his self designed tees..hmmm...how come i nvr noticed him in e past...

aniwae...ok...this post is just to rant...my excitement...personally...i tink e best song he sang yesterday is 生命有一种绝对...好深情。。好投入。。。but my personal fave is 爱情万岁...

all i can say now is...
come back quickly...haha..
期待-ing for their next concert...
(Minor complaint here...one sad thing or unhappy things for this concert..in short spoiler...is...the t shirt tt i bought...stay real tee...designed by ashin one...obviously i told e person i want e female edition L size...and i just took it for granted tt i was given e correct one..so...i happily paid and took it..without opening until i reach home la...to my horror...is L size yup...no mistake...e design is oso wat i want...e nice nice one which i can wear on streets also...just tt is male L size...MALE SIZE...just imagine how big is it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...yup...i can gain another 50 more kg b4 i can fit into it la...i dun wan to mention how ex is it...i dun tink i hav another shirt same value as tt...but e stupid point to note here is...i am just angry la...but i am not heartpain or wad...guess i am deeply poisoned...ashin poison...someone...can serve me e antidote???)

20:47


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Saturday, April 26, 2008

mayday concert

Yo...yeah!!!!!!!!!!!...
Mayday concert tonight!!!!!!!!!

五月天!!!!!!!!!!!!

加油!!!加油!!!加油!!!

11:00


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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

dying island

几分钟前，刚阅读完一本小说“那年夏天，最宁静的海洋”，目前仍无法将自己抽离故事当中，看来我真的被小说中重重的死亡气息包围了。

会想读这本书的原因是因为听过“那年夏天宁静的海”这首歌。同样的，都在描述着死亡，一个人人避忌的主题。

矛盾的我啊，总喜欢探讨此类话题，越是害怕，就越想知道，知道越多，就当然越恐惧，越是恐惧，就会越想珍惜眼前所有的一切。

珍惜，因为不想失去。

最终，我依然是个害怕死亡的胆小鬼。

读这本书，不时有毛骨悚然的感觉。奇怪的故事内容，加上不时突然的情节大转折，让我有点迷惑，故事到底想表达什么。

或许我的语文能力太差吧，好像每次读完一本书时，都似懂非懂。

不过没关系，因为往往让我感动或有感触的都不是结局或宗旨，而是那些最不引人注目的小细节，或那些微不足道的小环节。

当然，没有这些‘配角’，就不可能凸显主角的重要性了。

书中对死亡的描述令我印象深刻，从中看到了人面对死亡的无奈。死亡默默找上了门，人无法反抗，只能无奈的接受。一旦它向你伸出双手，你不得不握着它，跟随着它。（个人见解啦）

常常听人说，死后，就会到达另一个更美的世界，那叫做天堂。似乎所有人都这样相信着，好人死后一定会到天堂。

相信有天堂，说穿了，只是个自我安慰的方式，让自己悲愤心情恢复的最快方式。

不过，这是好事，因为只有相信，才能让自己走过悲伤，然后继续生活。

有点讽刺，不过我接受。

接受，但不是相信。

对我来说，与其说服自己相信一个虚无飘渺的说法，与其相信一个不知是否真正存在的天堂，倒不如就干脆接受吧。

接受他/她已不存在的事实，接受死亡的讯息，然后要更坚强的活着，因为现在，你还要为多一个‘人’活着，呼吸着多一倍的氧气。

把悲伤抽掉，把快乐加倍。

因为活着比什么都还重要，不要把希望寄托在不真实的天堂，多花心思在这个世界，这个你还活着的世界。希望在这里，是可以兑现的。

不知为何，想要说的好像打出来后，变得有点怪怪的。文句，内容，结构，好像很别扭，怪不得我不是作家。哈哈。

回到小说，有几句话，非常发人深省。

比如，《世界的开始没有人类，世界的结束也不会有人类的存在。》《这世界充满了谎言，谎言与真实混淆，但在谎言中，更能了解一个人真正的想法。》（类似这样的句子啦）

算了，还是暂时别想这么多，要不然又会失眠。。



back to reality, i am left with one week of holiday. starting work soon, but e hr has not called me yet...so..aniwae...yup..already seen e renal doctor..hmmm..apparently e protein in urine problem has evolved to another problem which is wbc and rbc in urine...e doctor is reluctant to give me a conclusion tt i am alright or wat...i understand...so i need to go back for follow up...which means more money need to be spend again...next blood taking will be in june...early june..sian-ed...more blood taking..more tests this time..blood test are damm ex u see...and now...i need to be tested for wierd things like anti ds dna...complement 3&4 etc...(which are blood tests for SLE aka lupas if i am not wrong)...haix...this in turn means my mum is stuffing me with more trad chinese med...but no worries...apparently i am asymptomatic...which means i am perfectly well...but of cos...who noes for sure la...SLE (红斑狼疮)...scary lehx...pls...

aniwae...回到地球表面 in 3 days..excitement is draining my soul...

23:36


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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

reading

时间过得蛮快的，大家都工作/读书了，我依然在家。哈哈。不过，我也没闲着，早已到图书馆借了几本小说。

一天以内看完了一位朋友介绍的书，迷失的男孩（馆里找不到英文的，所以就读华文的）。故事很精彩，我用了一个下午把它看完，时不时会感动得哭，觉得如果换成是我的话，不可能这么勇敢的坚持下去。故事是说一个被母亲虐待的男孩，如何勇敢的活着，并走出阴影。The Boy Called ‘IT'，英文书名，应该有听过吧。

另一个长篇小说，有上下两本，海边的卡夫卡，我用了比较久的时间读完。比起前一本，这个比较深，也比较难理解。

比较喜欢海边的卡夫卡，虽然是fiction，不过也反映了很多现实中的事。印象较深的是，世界上的空间那么大，而一个人只需要占一个小小空间就够了，但却往往找不到能容纳自己的空间。（大致上是这个意思）

当然书上也反映了许多其他现实。尤其喜欢世界边缘这个东东。

所谓世界的边缘，就是生与死的世界的中间。在那，没有所谓时间这个东西。不过，还好书中主角及时领悟到其中道理，并回到原本属于他的世界。

之前有读到另一本书，类似也在说这个，不过那本书称它为天堂村。人间与天堂，还有在中间的天堂村。同样的，这种地方没有所谓的时间或记忆。简单的说，人死后但却还有牵挂，不能到快乐的天堂，所以只好先到这儿。

书就介绍到这儿，其实读完后我也不太明白一些细节，不过就如人生，并不是所有事情都能用言语来解释的。读他的书，好像要抱有这种态度。哈，纯粹个人看法。

不过，他的书真的值得一读吧，作者村上春树。

（PS：以下是我的一些想法，跟书无关。）

在世界的边缘，真是个世外桃源，环境理想，想要什么就有什么。换句话说，是个完美的地方。

不过，讽刺的是，人不断追求完美，但却不能在完美中生存。（深奥吗，不过仔细想想就会明白）

如果一切都如此完美，那生存的意义就会消失。也就是说，完美世界到来的那一天，应该就是世界末日的降临吧。

因为，没有目标的生活，等于没有灵魂的人，有如走动的尸体。

所以不停追求完美，却不能在完美中生存，不讽刺吗？即使如此，还是要继续追求吧，让自己处于接近完美的状态。

人的动力，需要梦来维持，所以即使梦有多不实际，

我还是要作梦，我还是要作梦，我还是要作梦。。。

16:56


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Tuesday, April 08, 2008

b/b from nuh

Finished examination at nuh...blood test indeed was painful...despite using e small butterfly needle...results were out pretty fast..i thought i had to wait till next wk or wad...but nope...e staff called at 5pm to fix a doctor's appt date..apparantly...i am still not sure what my results meant...from wat she said tt doc had r/v the results...not much of an issue...just as i breathed a sigh of relief...she continued on tt urine results not good...but...should be ok la...then just ask me to see e specialist next wk...hmmm...so...should i be relieved or wad??...i dunno...i guess it is not right for her to say anything to me ba...so just go see doctor first lo...hmmm...so from now on till next thurs...i should just stop thinking of this troubling issue ba...

one thing to note...blood test really is expensive..a renal panal 1 is like $40...i officially burnt a hole in my mum's pocket...lol

aniwae...i decided not to waste this 'hol' away...thus decided to pick back e hobby of reading again...used to read a lot during pri sch days ba...then sec and poly..smell e book oso headache le...who cares about reading...but now...decided to indulge in reading again...borrowed 5 novels...in chinese though (realised tt i am more into eng in pri and sec days...but now is chinese...be it music or books)...but all in traditional chinese...and those vertically aligned one...dotx..i guess i will spend much time to read le...wonder can i finish in 3 wks time

meanwhile...let's enjoy...be it working, studying or slacking...

19:32


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Monday, April 07, 2008

left behind

中学时期，印象最深刻的一句话是班导师常说的：“一定要努力，别被‘遗留’下来”

结果，大家果然都很努力，走上了一条一般人会选择的路，初级学院

就只有我和其他几位同学（不到五个吧）选择了理工学院

当时，还因为选择与其他人不同的路而感到自豪

因为大家都认定我应该到很好的初级学院去，所以内心叛逆的我，下定决心往返方向走

不过还好，并没有丝毫被‘遗留’的感觉，毕竟是自己的选择

所以之后的三年，我都很努力的走下去

好喜欢读书的日子，因为护理真的是我喜欢的科目

不过好讨厌实习，因为必须面对现实的残酷

果然，书上和现实情况是截然不同的

三年真的一眨眼就过了，护士执照也考到了

眼看马上要踏入社会工作了，有点紧张害怕，不过还挺期待尝试的，反正不喜欢就换别的工作嘛

可惜，天算不如人算，因为突如其来的检查报告，不能如期开工

突然，有种被‘遗留’下来的感觉。真不好受

大家都有自己的路了，读书或做工，而我，还在等待答案

其实我想的很乐观，丝毫不觉得自己会有什么问题

不过，家人的担心渐渐影响到我，让我开始想，万一真的有事该怎么办，接下来又该如何走

我该不会从此成为大家的包袱吧？

别说我小题大作，因为事不关己时，是无法了解当事人的感受的

别怪我想的太悲观，我只想给自己一个心理准备

如果检查结果没事，我一定会更高兴

如果有事，至少已有心理准备

毕竟已经长大了，想事情也不该太草率或太简单

明天将到国大检查，又要抽血了（真痛），然后过几天就能知道成绩了吧

希望一切顺利，我不想再被‘遗留’

老天啊，我在这儿，别把我忘了。。。。

22:40


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Saturday, April 05, 2008

taipei last day

Finally..the last post of my taipei trip...which is like one month ago...lol...day 6...decided to go to yang ming shan 阳明山...reason being good weather...but it is a bad choice obviously...cos i think tt day we only covered less than 1/10 of the whole place...tt are so many places there which i want to explore lor...but due to time constraint (need to rush to airport b4 4pm) and energy constraint (really tiring...i didnt even climb bt timah hill here...so where got e energy to climb tt hill...somemore is like dunno how many times bigger...)...so..next time if i go to taipei...will definitely save one full day for here...and perhaps hop on e explorer bus instead of walking throughout..lol...


Yup...it is supposedly the flower season there...though there are not much flowers le...(told tt feb is e nicest)...but still e scenery is great...especially for ppl like us 都市小孩...i dun think i hav seen so much flowers b4 in my whole 20 years of living...no joke...if singapore is considered a flower city...so what is here..??...

(nice right?...this thing is huge lor...dunno made up of how many pots of flowers..
btw...above pic is a combination of 3 shots...）

(a pity tt never exactly go and walk around 台北车站）

（at the airport lo)

(1. the most ex thing i bought i taipei...at duty free there...
2. the cheapest thing i bought..at 7-eleven NT 10
3. well..haha..this is meant to be a joke..lol..the shop does have a cute name..aniwae 太阳饼，布丁 from here is nice...located at 九份老街
4. 我最得意的战利品)

20:31


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Thursday, April 03, 2008

taipei day 5

Taipei Day 5: went to taipei underground mall...It is huge...took us quite a while to walk finish...of cos...got lots of stuff to buy from here also...especially shoes..some are real cheap at NT200 per pair...and yup...tt's all about here...shopping only lor...not much things to write

After tt...took train to 新北投 stop...here is all about 温泉 actually...hav e museum...and of cos..lots of different hotsprings...didnt try any though..haha...main stop in this area is 地热谷..not much of a tourist attraction yet...but this place is seriously cool lor...and hot of cos...


(禁止煮蛋...when i saw this really wanna laugh man...lol
and yup..is really smoke coming out from e water...and the rock wall...
is close to 90+ degree ba...lol...just walking near it makes me perspire le..)

Aniwae..after tt...went to 淡水...walked around 淡水老街...plainly just walk walk see see lor..



ferry ride to 渔人码头...

(somehow...i just like e 情人桥..aka lovers' bridge..
dunno lehx..just hav a feel for it...lol...)

Lastly...sunset...not a nice one...cos of e clouds...but 淡水 is really a nice place...to stroll..to relax...nice scenery...and most importantly..no tall buildings around which are so restrictive...

(whoa...i am trying to capture e sun..haha)

finally post till day 5 le...left one last day...shall finish it fast later this week...time really passes fast...almost a month since i hav been there...i used to think i love taiwan a lot...so hav been ranting to go there...but seriously thinking back...what i love is just e feeling of travelling ba...travelling means no 烦恼...so no matter what e country is...i will still like ba...as long as it is away from here...oops..this sounds like i am escaping...不过，如果逃避能让自己更快乐，那何乐而不为呢？我知道，逃避解决不了问题，但如果面对同样也无法解决，那为何不选择一个让自己更快乐的做法？

ok..aniwae...yup..i cant escape from now...need to go nuh tmr again...sian-ed...blood test so painful...haix...must wake up early..haix...sleeping now ba..night...

NOTE...whoever's up there...pls bless me..

02:09


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