Shi Hwee

Thursday, December 27, 2007

regina's birthday

Today marks e end of my 3 days break... so tmr will be back in action today...went out at round 1330 today...to sch to collect tt application form...in e end is like have to go back to sch once again next time to submit e form....dotx...plus hav to print out all academic records...btw anymore know how to get ir print an official CCA record???...troublesome...i doubt i can successfully get this award too...

aniwae..after tt went to meet reg wes and joanne...also saw mingyi on e way out of sch..she changed so much...haha mainly due to her short hair ba...i cant recognise her at all...lol...hmm..next time i shall go for a major hair change too...aniwae...celebrated reg's birthday....hehe...e cake was soooo nice...chocolate...my fave...then went to watch movie national treasure...quite interesting...nice scenes...no ratings by me though....cos i tink i would enjoy every movie tt i watch...haha...i wont mark down a movie jux because i tink is not nice...everyone production is someone's hard work ba...haha...

chatted with them for some time...hehe..get to know how they are doing in ttsh and all tt...a lot of interesting stories too...glad to know tt they are doing well...haha...and they are able to handle so many patients...wow...really great...hmmm...unlike me..i am struggling with my 6 pts...plus unsure of a lot of things...but some encouragement i get and feel from them...i will be ok de!!!...aniwae...really nice to meet up with friends...hehe...aniwae...heard of some news of our tw trip from reg le...hope tt e tour is good enough so we can confirm go...hehe...me same as reg...really hope to embark on e trip to tw straightaway...perhaps due to e highly stress environment tt we are in now...

nonetheless...prcp only left about a month now...must catch up with all e things i am unsure of now...i am contradicting myself...sometimes i tink i can and will be able to make it...but sometimes i tink i cannot make it at all...maybe due to some obstacles tt i am quite confused now ba...i hope to be optimistic too...but it jus seem difficult cos once i tink of gg back to e ward...my heart will feel like got a big stone pressing on it (direct translate from chi...haha)...dunno how to describe tt feeling...maybe is stress plus fear ba...aniwae...i am not depressed or wat...luckily i always talk and grumble to my mum...haha...always complain to her tt i am scared or what...and always telling her tt i tink i will fail...lolx...dunno...but after complaining...e answers tt i get like dun worry...fail nvr mind...i noe u tried hard le...etc...makes me feel better...and less stress too..

my mum and sis always tell me tt i am e one who is giving myself a lot of stress...perhaps this is true...i am always pushing myself...and i am surprised by what my sis told me...tt i should not be too perfectionist...this sentence sorta wakes me up...seriously speaking..i nvr think of myself as a perfectionist until my sis told me tt...now thinking back...maybe i really am...being a perfectionist maybe my inner self...which i not know until someone tells me...pushing myself to e limits...to try to do e best for everything...to maintain all my grades above certain figures and etc...i jux cant stand e idea of not doing things to e best...hmmm...but we cant expect everything to be perfect...mabye i should seriously think about this...and try to change some of my thinking...maybe after tt...i will not give myself too much stress...i do understand tt some stress can motivate one to go further...but excessive stress will jux backfire..and causes burn out...

perhaps for e year of 2007...e most important lesson tt i have learnt is...not to push myself too hard...and not to be too perfectionist....ok..afternoon shift tmr...i shall go rest now...

aniwae...my buying list for 2008 currently: a sony T20 camera...ndsl zelda edition...N81...(first 2 is confirm buying next wk...hmmm for e handphone...i tink better wait longer...haha...)..oh ya...last thing to mention...jux heard tt my family may not be able to celebrate cny...hmmm...cos my grandpa's death not more than 100 days la...then cannot visit...cannot receive or give out hong baos...cannot wear bright colour clothes...(tt's why i am always wearing e white and black shirts only...lol...)..haix...sain-ed...so what's e resolution...buy more high technological things to entertain myself lor...haha

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