Shi Hwee

Friday, January 25, 2008

5 more days

Whoa...long time no update le...haha...really sian-ed...nothing interesting to update also...everytime oso post about e same old things...ok..pls bear with me for a while more...jux a while more ok....jux left with 5 more working days b4 this long prcp posting ends....jux 5 more days...from sunday to thursday....friday will be back to sch!!!!!!...yeah...ok...let me be negative once more..tt is provided i pass e posting la...lol...wierd right??...up till now...i still have no confidence on whether i will pass or not..no one told me anything...not my preceptor not e sister...

plus plus plus...my stupid checklist...i dunno how is it now....lol....3 wks ago...our lecturers were telling us tt must get it sign finish b4 e last wk of prcp...now is e last wk le...sadly...i havent complete it...and i nvr seen it too...lol...supposedly i tink need to hand in on monday le...but very very sadly...my preceptor is on shift until tues...and guess wat????...all my checklist is with her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...dunno whether to laugh or cry...hope she kindly sign finish for me...haix...tink of tt oso sian-ed...plus i feel so...**** to keep pestering her to sign...and to go see sister with me...but no choice...actually we planned to see sister this wk de lor...but when we wan to c her...she is on training leave...haix...then can only wait until next tues le...oh god...really dunno what to do or say le...

and one more thing....see bad things dun occur in single...i still hav to do e code blue drill next wk...which is like huh???..next wk left like 4 days only lehx (excluding sunday)...plus have to go end posting briefing..where got time to do...then no one tell me exact time date or details too...really dotx lor....stupid thing...but i hope i can pass...really hope so...tink should be something like megacode in lscn ba..if it is so..i tink i can do it...haha...but i dunno lehx...havent go and watch e video on it too..must must must go watch this sunday or monday le...cannot lazy anymore...lol...everything is so fast gg now...it is coming to an end.......................

aniwae...i am undecided on things now...i dunno should i continue study or work???...c is always like tt...when i dun hav e letter of employment...i am sad...but somehow fixed in my decision to go apply uni...but now when i hav it...i am still sad...cos now i dunno what to do...i dunno if i want to continue to work in this highly stress environment...or should i jux go study another course tt i like...i dunno...i hate to make decision...cos i always tend to regret...haix..what should i do lehx???...

but e main important thing in my mind now...is still about e passing and failing thing...no one talks about it at all...everyone seems confident to pass..but how come i dun feel e same???...there are still quite a few protocol tt i dunno...and there are still many things for me to learn...what does this mean???...am i really not gg to make it???...haix...i really dunno lor...all i know is...i had already put in my best effort...and i really work hard for it le...including sacrificing things tt i like for this posting...不过我也知道，付出并不等于会有好的结果。所以，一切都随缘吧。

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