Friday, September 25, 2009
night shift again
Haix...i am on night shift again..i thought i wont get anymore night shift because of the course...but in e end...haix...luckily it is just weekend nights...ok...so 3 nights to suffer...but the bad thing is...i only got one sleep day...boo...meaning...when i come home on monday after my night...i sleep rest...then next day need to work again..somemore need to wake up early cos got course on that day...boo...what sorta rest am i getting???...is it that i already have too long a leave that's why i need to slog now??...headache now...cannot nap...cannot sleep..later still must go work...sianed to the max..
Yesterday first day back to work...not that bad...but i am a bit slower i think..haha...went home immediately surf net..i am becoming so ermmm...aniwae...is the first day of dna concert in taipei yesterday...read all the reviews in ptt etc...omg the concert sounds so exciting even in words only...read 4d effects...explosives...fireworks...water splashing out...cars driving in ...arhx...i am soooooo jealous...so tempted to go...and they revealed their concert in kaoshiung which is 5/12/09...arhx....i am soooo tempted to go...should i???...should i???
aniwae...was browsing through previous entries just now...from just when i started work...haix...how should i say??...i am just glad that i keep a blog...cos at that moment...at that point...all those things that i written down are just what i really felt then...now i realised...actually just one month after i started working i realised that this is not what i really want...but maybe due to time...due to some circumstances...i managed to pull on until now...but the more i read bout my entries..i actually felt so bad...i actually let myself 'suffer' on...hmmm...how should i say ...am i actually pity-ing myself??...one year ago...i may not have the courage to make any decision...because i already made the wrong decision when i chosen this course...thus i decided to stay on without deciding anything...but now...i should not carry on this mistake....maybe my goals are still not that clear at the moment...but at least now i have the courage to say i have really chosen wrongly..and i will soon go back to my right path again...ok...i have not decided on any big decisions or goals yet...but one thing i am sure...is what i will not want myself to be doing...ok...enough for now...the future is still foggy..lol...i should go nap at least for a while..i can predict a hectic night...
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