Sunday, January 31, 2010
regrets
Yesterday was a pretty awful day...i think i had seriously said something i shouldnt have even mention at all...but it is now too late to regret...words once said...cannot be taken back..i think i was just to emotional at that time ba...i dunno why...but whenever comes to this topic...i will just fill this gush of tears coming in my eyes...and although unwilling...i will always breakdown...this is bad...but maybe i find it too stressful and heavy to keep all this to myself also ba...sooner or later..i need to face this situation...sooner or later...i still need to force myself to make this painful decision...but anyway...now i still think i was just too reckless...hmmm...how to salvage the situation next week???...i hope i find the right words this time...and of cos...dun say out too much...
aniwae...after work yesterday went for spicy steamboat aka mala hotpot with zhen...it was great meal...surprisingly i dun find it as spicy or hot this time...perhaps i am just too sad to realise that it is actually spicy...aniwae...ate a lot...in e end got diarrhoea today...too heaty..lol...just now had dinner with some colleagues..supposed to be a farewell dinner for chelsea...although less ppl...but we do enjoy ourselves...korean bbq is indeed not bad...had lots of kimchi today as well...just the ginseng chicken was a minus point...wierd taste lehx...
aniwae...i dunno about others...or how others think...but sometimes i feel and find it quite disturbing...that different ppl indeed get different treatment...i mean not as in rich or poor tt sort...just tt...some ppl...when they leave or what..they will get some grand farewell dinner with lots of ppl attending...while others will not have...i feel it quite unfair...and i dun understand this underlying politics or whatsoever...adults are just so ...hmmm...relationships between ppl are just not as simple as u think it is...they may hi smile talk...but deep down they may be cursing each other...this really makes me feel uncomfortable..who knows i may also have been backstabbed a thousand times???...but still...i feel tt by saying less...and treating others with a little more trueness...this world/place will definitely be a better place...e very moment tt u are talking bad about someone...u are already being reflected as a neg person...well this applies to me...i may listen to gossips...but i will not join in any...cos i seriously feel that everyone should be treated fairly...and truely...
presales for mayday's concert already started...again...i got neg comments from others tt i am spending my money away wastefully...well...i am actually numb to all this long long ago...just let them say lo...i mean different things mean different values in different ppl...u may have spend hundreds or thousands on spas...massage...clothes...bags..etc and find it worthwhile...i have willingly spend hundreds for concerts each time...u find it wasteful tt i spend hundreds on 2hours of concert..and i also find it wasteful tt u spend hundreds on spa/facial/massage...every single person had their own value or mindset i thought we should not belittle or critisise all these...aniwea..i as usual will ignore all this comments la...today bought 4tix..thanks to xuehui's ocbc card....only managed to secure A4 row 13 seats..i preferred A3 actually...cos A4 is abit too side...so is sideview seats...but no choice la...A3 seats are from row 20 onwards le...aniwae...looking forward to concert now...know it will be great..haha...hope it will be comparable to kaohsiung's one...
next week is a crucial week...a lot of things to be completed...
and next week stif will be back..haha...look forward to k-session with them...yeah
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