Tuesday, March 02, 2010
naive?
Had 3 continuous morning shifts..really cannot take it...perhaps everyday i am going out ba...slept 8pm yesterday until 9am today...now feeling tired again...guess i am sleeping soon after this post...internet connection is haywire today...frustrated...i shall keep entry short...have this feeling i willl keep retyping due to connection error...
Anyway...sent steph off on sunday...sending ppl away is so sad...i dun think i will do that anymore...haha...aniwae...also had a great meetup and chat session with joanne wes and reg...reached home 0130 tt day...with a cabfare of 35bucks...freaking expensive la...next time should not stay so long in airport..haha...and e next day i morning shift somemore...haix...i am getting so fatigue nowadays...
News had been spreading in ward...i feel sad actually...cos i only told a few of my close colleagues aka friends in the ward re:my thinking of leaving...it turns out everyone knows it...i wonder should i even consider them as friends...my mum say i am too naive...i dunno...i thought mutual trust in each other is essential in friendship??..or is it only my own stupid thinking and mindset...e world is bad enough..why such things are still happening to make me lose faith in everybody and things??...i dunno...e more they spread..they more i think i ought to leave...maybe in e end..i leave not because i want to...because i am forced to...
Well..i really think my thoughts are becoming more and more negative...i dun think i should continue like this forever..but it seems i have not much choices now...aniwae...my annual leave is coming in about a month...i should make use of the time to relax..and replenish myself...
aniwae..luckily i did not tell anyone in my ward about this blog...if not..i seriously can go jump le ba..sometimes..it is a good thing tt i am not 'popular' or 'famous' or well like or known by ppl...at least i get to vent something here...although i still have a private blog somewhere..but i still prefer here actually...since this blog is with me since i am 18yrs old..carries a lot of memories...good or bad...they are all precious...
aniwae...i dun see e point of celebrities sharing their blog officially...openly...like ashin...and even guai shou now...they attract everyone to their blog...everyone will hock online everyday waiting for them to update...and comment rubbish...and they cannot even write or post anything too personal...of cos...the contents may not be so real or truthful afterall...so what's the point of having e blog anyway???...maybe it is fun to see 'wu liao' ppl stalking them in e net every single min...well...i do read their blogs also..maybe i am contradicting myself...but i really see no point of having a blog/diary if you cannot even be truthful and write personal things there...
haix..internet connection down...but fixed now...faster post...back to sleep...
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