Saturday, April 03, 2010
big day approaching
For the past 1-2 weeks, i had been opening letter box everyday i got home from work...checking email everyday to see whether there are any letter or what for me...finally on mon when i received the sms to go for interview next mon..which is like 2 days later...i was not as anticipating as before le...haix...right now..i am already feeling the stress and uneasiness le...arhx!!!...tried and attempted to rehearse what may happen in the interview...tried to search for things to help in the interview...tried to pre-empt myself of the questions most likely to be asked...but i realised..the more i think the more un-prepared i feel...right now..i can no longer squeeze out any more details from my brain le...standard qns which definitely will come out...i dun even know how to answer le...am i too stress???...but my mind is really in a blank now...and there is no one whom i can get advised from...haix...first time ever i feel this way..first time i felt so lonely...first time i am scared that what if i failed the whole thing???
maybe i should stop thinking about this ba...anyway...e more i think about it...the more stress and blank i feel...i guess i only just take it as it is on that day ba...interview is 4pm...i hoped i can reach on time...cos i am working morning shift...last minute changed also...i decided not to tell anyone in work place re: this...as advised by my mum...she said colleagues are different from friends...i dun want to agree...but i guess this time i should obey...cos i am not confident at all...what if i failed then what to do??...how to tell others then...haix..so better not to dilvuge anything now...wait i even more stress...i think i had a big mouth sometimes...not to other ppl's things...but to myself...dunno why i just feel like sharing everything gg on about me with others...what i like...what i do..what i gg to do...but end up...worse things will happen...i guess not everyone will appreciate what i do ba...so my aim now is just to go along the flow...just say what others say lor...
anyway....most probably this two nights will be sleepless night ba...even day time i think until headache le...what's more at night...now just wish monday faster come...get it over and done with...if successful...then happy lor...i get what i wish and aim for...if unsuccessful...i really dunno how...i think i will be super super sad ba...maybe i am over confident previously to think that i will definitely get in...so now...i still dun have a back-up plan yet...aniwae...i will just leave it this way first...just wish hard first to get in...maybe 2-3weeks after interview i will know the results...until then then decide what to do next ba...
enough about bothering things...next is happy events...AL is finally coming...whoa....6 more days of working...yup..no off in between...then i will have AL for 2 weeks...meaning to say 6 more days before i depart for HK...woohoo...so excited...never been there before...i want to try all the delicious food there...haha...and looking forward to disneyland although i have already been to tokyo one...i want to watch the parade once more!!! maybe my mum is right saying that i am spending too much on travel...thus my 2 years of working earn me $0 in bank...she is right...but to me...it is another kind of experience gained...i may not hav savings due to excessive travelling...but i do gain a lot of knowledge and 'experience' from travelling which others may not have...i may not have money to pursue studies in e near future without any sponsership...but i definitely cannot hold on until now if not for all these travels...thinking back...it may be all these travelling which makes me hold on to my job and live on with a smile until now..so...i still feel i never regret to spend my income on travel...but after this HK trip...i guess i will not take on any long trips le ba...at least for the time being...
aniwae...HK trip is worth anticipating..i wish to gain a whole new experience...and try things which i seldom or never done b4...so yup...HK...wait for me...am coming soon in less than a week!...haha...will be back on april 15th...then rest one day...17th will be another worth anticipating day!!!...super happy for the month of april....17th will be mayday's concert yet again...i think this DNA concert series i watched until can memorise le ba...plus the dvd i have now...can watch countless times le...somehow i think this unlimited version will be somehow different from prev dna concert...which may be more worthwhile la...but some part of me wish it will be similar...cos i really miss last year's concert in action...nonetheless...it is a concert worth anticipating...yeah!!!...and a note...it will be held in national stadium instead!...whoa...i thought tt stadium closed down le lor...and somemore last year guan you did say something like next time they wish to hold concert there...i was still thinking silently no way since it is closed...but now..it is like a dream come true...s.h.e concert will be at indoor...mayday at outdoor...i guess stadium area on tt day will be damm full!!...more than 10000 ppl will be there on tt night..haha...will streets of singapore be quieter then???..haha...i guess i need to go there earlier on tt day...to jalan jalan around...and maybe meet may and emily elsewhere later to dine...i guess the kallang leisure park on tt day will be full to the max...so cannot dine there la..hahaha...so excited...
april is so fun filling to me now...haha...amybe i will make a trip to universal studio in april as well...haha...make full use of my AL...yup...6 more days...fast fast...thinking about these happy events make me temporary forget about the stress and tension which i felt over this few days...i guess i still need more encouragement...which i doubt i will have since i never tell anyone..haix...no choice but to buck up myself...self-encouragement ba...
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