Wednesday, April 28, 2010
dampened spirits
I think i am just too over confident regarding my application to NIE for bsc...up till now still havent got any letter of offer even though i went for the interview like 3weeks ago...which is very long...after reading through threads in forums...i guessed i probably had failed...well...i think i will just still give them a call tmr to find out the application results...get them to tell me directly in my face that i failed ba...rather than me still 傻傻的 waiting for their reply either by sms or mail...checking the mail box everyday like nothing...i feel so stupid...well...i admit i am very sad now...99% i did not get in ba...because i think most ppl already gotten their offers...either by sms or mail le...i guessed i just need to call and get the confirmation that yes u failed to get in...hmmm..first time i really feel like crying...cos this is e dream of mine to get admitted in uni and study what i really like...but i guess all these hopes are vanished now...haix...so now what am i going to do next? i am just too confident that i will get in and thus did not actually plan what to do if i failed...well i did had a plan B..but i dunno...all of these are just too sudden...ha...bad thing of me liking to roam in forums...but well...i guess better to know the results now rather than last minute know then dunno what to do...but final thing is i will still resign no matter what...this is what i have discussed with my mother...just a matter of time now..
though i always like to sing 就算是整个世界把我抛弃 而至少快乐伤心我自己决定 ...but i guess this is not the case now...cos i am badly affected by all i have read...and sadly my emotions are very affected as well...well..give me a few days to recover ba...haix..just leave me alone..i guess everything will be fine by then...let me receive the final blow tmr first ba...depending on what answer i get tmr ba...if is confirmed failure...i guess i will resign sooner...then faster look for a new job and do what i want to do!
aniwae...just when i thought i am recovering from the appendicitis...the pain is coming back again...increasing in frequency...hmmm...i think my bad mood had affected everything...and also my non compliance to antibiotics ba...what to do now??...i hope the pain wont get worse...if not next thing tmr i will visit the a/e as well...haix...let me have a good night sleep...but i doubt so...cos i am really feeling very very sad...
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