Friday, December 31, 2010
the day before 2011
Now it is 0000.
Finally, the last day of 2010. Well, actually it had been a rather fast pacing year. Or should I rephrase it this way that, ever since graduation days seemed to be fast forwarding? Too fast that a lot of things/events are forgotten if you never attempt to remember it hardly or write them all down. I should admit that I am not a very consistent blogger, at least as compared to schooling days when I really have more entries on more things. And of course of a wider context. Well, at least I have this blog to jot down some important happenings of my life, which I am glad of. Just browsing through the titles of my entries, suddenly realised that my 2010 is quite eventful, and strangely some major events are left out in my mind when I am thinking of what to write in this entry. Perhaps subconsciously I am trying to delete away those unhappy events in my memory?
Anyway things that I've intended to write about for year 2010:
1) The one big major event will of course be my resignation. The first big step which I've taken forward to pursue what I really wanted. And of course, I've not regretted my choice of resigning (yup, forsaking my bonus and my promotion) and even if time turns back now I will still resign.
2) Adapting to a new job at a research setting. Still learning and future is unclear. Haha. Not talking about career advancement but rather my whereabouts after my contract is finished? And that's in month's time. Hoped to be able to stay on of course at least until july. Well, it is really not easy to learn whole new stuff and know new colleagues once over again, especially when you are not going to stay very long also. And of course, I need to pay. Realistic me.
3) My first overseas trip with Siying to Hong Kong. Enjoyable event of the year. Haha, all overseas trips are nice. No work no stress. Buy and eat, shop and sleep.
4) Unlimited DNA at outdoor stadium. Not a best concert, but is rather memorable when thinking back. Great company of May and Emily and of course my sis. Amazed that I managed to pull 2 non-mayday fans to go with me, and tickets are seriously not cheap!
5) Lastly, this is the part which I've forgotten but refreshed after looking through the titles of my entries. Being accepted in NUS and NIE. And both of which I did not go ahead to study. And also, this is the most painful time of 2010 which makes me not to remember it. I figured it as a good thing, not to think backward but forward. So, yup, think forward.
Did not manage to squeeze in 10 major events for 2010, so 5 is still presentable? Haha. But it is really a fast year, which is good in a sense as I've regard 2010 as a bridging year for my future goal. Managed to experience different aspect of nursing before completely forsaking it next year. And managed to carefully think through my options before enrolling again in 2011. Maybe it is a good thing that I gave up the sponsorship for NIE course. Yup, somehow or rather.
Ok, enough of the past, now is the future. Looking forward to 2011, which is a day more!!!! Carefully thinking, 2011 is really an important year. Haha, if 2012 is the really marked end day for all, then 2011 is the last year before we are all gone!!! So isn't it a very important year then??? LOL. Sometimes I feel that even if 2012 is really the end day, it may not be as bad as we think. Well, since all need to die someday, it may be a blessing for all to die on the same day, together, and we will never have to suffer the loss of anyone again. An end to all. The world is not as pleasant as before anyway. So 2011 will be a big year for me. Treat it as a last year, and enjoy and cherish everything and everybody when it is still available and present.
1) First big thing will of course be to enrol to a local uni. I have finally decided on my choices, after a small talk or rather random talk with Huiwen and Candy when we met on the 29th for dinner. Sounds really random, but after listening to them and thinking, I think I've really straighten up my thoughts. Haha, what a phrase. So yup I've finally decided on my choices, no more changes. (After all it is still only options, not even confirm whether I will get admitted) For NUS, I will still put FASS as my first choice, hopefully they will consider me again, since I rejected their offer in 2010. Well, majoring in CNM seems not a bad idea after all. I really think I think too much. Anyway, my main goals are still in NTU. So, for first choice, I will put Mass communications! Surprise! Haha, back to the beginning, isn't this what I really wanted to study in the first place (yup, even during sec school days)? Just because of a random thought I chose nursing, and of course it is a bad choice which makes my life go a bit haywire. Deviated from what I really want, and now, I really think it is time to put things back again. Sadly, I have minimal confidence to be able to admit in this course due to a lot of factors. Firstly is of course the indicative GPA which I am below the 10th percentile for last year. Sad. Secondly will be the interview part? All these had made me not to consider mass communication as one of my choices, because I don't want to go through the rejection process and of course the depressing part. BUT, giving up without even trying??? No, I should not even had done that, because if I gave up again once now, it will be back to square one again. Assuming I took up other courses and again it is not very much to my liking, I will start blaming myself for not even trying to attempt to get into this course. And then the vicious cycle will begin again. So, no matter what, this should be my first choice. And even I may not be able to enter it after all, at least I attempted to try it, (and of course try to appeal during the appeal period?) so even if I get into other areas in the future, I will be contented as well. Second choice will be biological science. A related area of study. Not an easy course to get in as well, but biology is rather a comfortable area for me. Third will be chinese. Last option, though many times I have considered it as a first option, but after careful considerations, it may not be a feasible way for me. Taking chinese with another major in communication is what I want, but what if I did not do well in chinese enough to get a 2nd major (high chance because looking at the course contents ..........), I will be in a weird position.
Hopefully, I can get into anyone of the courses listed above. ( Better be, if not I will be in a lost) With this arrangement of choices, I can safely say that no matter what I get into, I will be contented. And of course, if I am really able to get into mass communication, it will be a greatest gift and achievement of my entire life!
2) Korea trip with my mum. Highly anticipated by my mum. Ok, by me as well. Hope this is achievable. If I can continue on my current job, it will be a confirm trip. If not, hmmm, further thoughts needed.
3) Hmmm. More concerts? Hoping to go to any mayday's concert again. Missed the excitement and highness. Not going for the rock one in jan though. News regarding the super slippa coming in seems reliable. So waiting for that. Written that this concert will last from afternoon to night (day to night), dunno how true is that, but worth anticipating. The latest show of this super slippa in Shanghai is fascinating. At least looking at the songlist it is a WOW and MUST to go le. With mayday as the main cast, and my new love magic power, it is really a must to go for this! Please, bring this concert in faster, better in the 1st quarter of the year, if not before june. Haha.
Ok, so these will be my 3 big goals for 2011 for the timebeing. Cannot have too much goals, if not seem too greedy. Hehe. Started typing this entry at 0000 sharp, can't believe that it is 1251 now already, took me almost an hour to type this.
Anyway, it is new year's eve today. As usual, plan is to stay and home and rot. This is the norm for my countdown for the past 2years. Watching online countdown shows in taipei, loves the 101 fireworks as usual. Hopefully this year I can watch online successfully as well. If not only can watch repeat le.
My one week break is finishing soon, so fast. This month is really a disaster, december, month of spending. Really overspent le la. On all the clothings etc. Somemore going to KL next week, heartpain. I am drifting further away from my target savings. At this point of time, work is good. Because, work then got money. Haha, what a crude way of saying.
Although 3 more days to enjoy still, I love my week of holiday already. Bought enough things, lazed enough at home, and slept enough. PPTV is a good channel of watching dramas, enjoying shows from it now as well. Browsing travel forums and looking through pictures in facebook is a good past time as well. Well, life can be that simple. And happiness can be this simple.
1259, 1 minute more.
0100. I've completed my last entry for this year.
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