Saturday, July 16, 2011
FOC: shinrikyo
Back from camp finally! It has been a long 5days. Only had some energy to update here now. Catching up with sleep and entertainment on the tv and computer. LOL. I was so badly burnt until I barely recognise myself. No exaggerating lo. I looked like I come from india. sadded. All my efforts in whitening care is gone. Need to restart all over again. So difficult to whiten my face a bit, and now, poof, it is back to dark skin again. No, is even darker skin than before.
Just finished packing my stuff for tmr. Decided to pack less. Just enough for 3d2n. Not enough then buy there ba. Haix, so sick and tired of packing le. So not excited for the trip cos I really am so tired now!!!!! Beside the pain due to sunburn, muscle ache bruises?? and butt bruise I think from all the sleeping and sitting on hard ground. Haix, shagged now really. But luckily I enjoyed myself a lot. Cannot imagine not going for this camp. I may not be the most active, I may not have known many friends, I may not have even talk to a lot more others, but I am already satisfied by just being present. Always hated to put myself in such situation when I will be totally submerged in a brand new environment, yet I always need to go through it over and over again. I am the sort who needs more time than others to get along well with people. From poly, when I only knew my gang from 2nd half of yr 2, to work, when I worked more than 6mths before I dun need to lunch alone, I predict the same thing will happen again.
I am just glad this is definitely not due to my age, that I am seriously overage and too old for camp. I guess it is all due to my introvert character. That I am not good at socializing with others all the while. But as I said before, dun expect everyone to be the same, to all be active and talkative and initiates everything. If that happens, the whole world will be in a mess!!! I will always be the quiet lie low me when it comes to a new environment. Until I find my own click?? I think people who know me well enough will know that it is definitely difficult to get me to stop talking then. LOL. I do wish to have the ability to talk to all strangers as well, but I just can't do it. Do not want to force myself to be talking crap to people whom I dunno, do not want to be so fake. Not saying that people who do that are fake of cos, it is just me alone. Cos if I also do that, it is so fake cos that is not me definitely. I am not one like tt!
This time round, I have this feeling that it may be a bit tough for me to fit in well. Cos everyone is just so ang-moh pai. Lol. My way of saying. Maybe I am chi-na as well, in the eyes of them?? WHatever. I love chinese more than ever. I am very proud to be a chinese person, one who talk in chinese and listen to chinese songs. And I will not force myself to like english songs/shows when I dun. A bit glad that I have not seen any foreigners yet in my course. Hehehe. But maybe because they wont attend camps as well la. Hahha. Waiting for hall results to be out now. Will know it like next week?? Hopefully I will be in a newer and air conditioned hall. haha.
Still have no idea when I need to be in school for the first week? Haix, I just I will figure it out when the time comes. And ya, need to buy a macbook for school le. Haven't decide on the exact model yet. SO many things to be done still. And I got like no time yet. Coming back from KL on tues night only, and I think I will be working already on wed. Just dunno the time yet. Sian-ed. I think I may have push myself too hard. No time to rest. Haix. But money is important as well. Lol. Nvr mind, KL trip shall be a relaxing one. And I will grab every opportunity to sleep more. Can't believe that during camp I can sleep like 7am in the morning. LOL. Luckily I am used to working graveyard shift, still can ton a bit. But I really love every part of my camp. Even if it means I am running the last for amazing race and totally feel like crying le. Love my OG shinrikyo. Love all the people inside even I may not really know them well. Love FOC. Love my choice of coming here.
Good nights.
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