Sunday, July 10, 2011
packing day
Finally finished my packing for the camp tmr. Super bulky. So difficult to squeeze in 5days clothings into one bag. Of course I cannot accomplish that, hence ending up with 3bags. One backpack, one hand carry bag, and one shoe bag. Very heavy as well, makes me headache when I carried them all. Like running away from home like tt, still need to squeeze tmr morning bus with all these barangs. Haix, super sian. I am so not looking forward to tmr. Well, I guess I am really a bit reluctant to go. I should have not register for it in the first place. Camps are really not for ppl like me, at least not for me. Introvert, anti social, super quiet. And old. Totally wrong. But no choice, I made the decision to study this course, hence all I can do now is to continue the mistake, making it not so wrong??!!
I guess is the stupid uncertainty feeling again. Confused and contradicting now. Haix. 5days to survive. I am really disheartened even though I have not even started it yet. Is it really because of this that I am unhappy? Or is it about something else which affects my mood regarding tmr's camp? Well, I think so too. Affected by other things which in turn makes me feel negative about everything. Thinking too much again. No wonder ppl always say, having no hope ensure no disappointment. I guess I expected too much. Wishful thinking? Ok, after today, I am going to forget about all those crap and just start enjoying my student days again. I am going to enjoy my camp! It may not be as bad as I think after all.
So, mon to fri, I will be unavailable. Sat will be a sleeping day. Sun to tues, I will be heading to KL. Wed onwards will be work again. If there is of cos. If not, I will just slack at home, and prepare for school. Hahhaha.
Think no more. Just enjoy!
Yeah. To myself.
20:49
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