Tuesday, August 14, 2012
2nd day of 2nd yr
Not a very nice week to start, ok rather only 2 days had passed and I am really not liking it anymore, at least for now. Firstly, the courses that I've planned to take turn out to be quite different from what I've expected it to be, and thus I need to endure the whole series of add-drop. Next, it really seems that I am all alone in this course. Haix, sad to say but I really find it so hard to mingle with others. Groups are already all formed, and I am perhaps unwilling to barge in just like that. After 20+ years of living, it is sad to say that I really do not know how to make friends with others, or even how to talk to others who I do not know well. I do not know since when this begins, or maybe I am just like that from young. I mean, I am really ok with being alone in school or going to classes alone. I am really fine with that. After all I am there to learn, and I strongly believe that making friends or what come quite naturally in a sense. But today, I am really terribly sad. Supposed to form a group for a core module, and because it is a big class, as in the class is the whole lecture hall, I finally realised that I did not have anyone to form a group with. I have no one to approach, as everyone is already in groups, so I could only look around in FB or whatsoever to try to source for a group. To no avail as of now. Well, I guess so too anyway, since I really do not know anyone. I really feel sad to walk to such stage that I have absolutely no one around me. No one to blame, except me myself of course. I am the one who refuses to talk more with all other people anyway. So this is really nothing surprising. Depressed and feeling pathetic now, and again, I have no one to talk to except but to grumble here. 自怨自艾, ya that's the correct phrase to use. So for now, I am really lost on what to do now. Shit, I really hate myself sometimes.
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